"Mirror, Mirror On The Wall"

January 16, 2012......So, I got out and started walking, walking & walking, particularly because I knew that I needed to just start to move.  Well, that's all well and good, but that's not enough.  Not where I want to go.  I want to be healthy.  Bottom line, clinically I'm considered OBESE.  Morbidly OBESE.  Really?  Really Boo Boo!!  That's not cute!!  That's not what's up!!  That's not SEXXXY!!  That's not HOT!!!  That my Dear Little Miss Princess Lolita, is not okay........(Real Talk)

I knew that I would have to look into that mirror and see myself looking back at me.  You know my real self, the Lolita that will tell Lolita the truth.  In order for this whole thing to work and make any good common sense, I would have to address the nutritional aspect of my program and goal to be a "Walking Woman that Wins."  I will have to stand on the scale, see exactly what I weigh, measure myself and see how round I am everywhere and then start counting calories, reading labels, taking the time to prepare my meals, measure my food, etc;  It's time for me to put in the work.  Just thinking about it causes trepidation.  Will I take it on?  You know I will.  When is the optimum question?  In true Lolita fashion, I will go for it later on tonight and I will share my measurements with you.  I feel that will be important to share where I am on the road to where I want to go.  So that when I get there, it won't be some big secret.  I will bring my skeletons out of the closet of weight and lay them down right in the middle of the street for everyone to see.

I want to share another song tonight by a rapper that I admire for his talent. He has a song out right now with Bruno Mars that I just can't get enough of.   Lil Wayne will speak to us tonight............"Mirror"

"With everything happening today, you don't know whether you're coming or going.  But you think that you're on your way.  Life lined up on the mirror don't blow it.  Look at me when I'm talking to you.  You looking at me, but I'm looking through you.  I see the blood in your eyes, I see the love in disguise.  I see the pain hidden in your pride.  I see you're not satisfied, and I don't see nobody else.  I see myself!  I'm looking at the Mirror on the wall, here we are again.  Through my rise and fall, you've been my only friend.  You told me that they can understand the woman I am.  So, why are we here talkin' to each other again?  Uh, I see the truth in you lies.  I see nobody by your side, but I'm with you when you are all alone, and you correct me when I'm looking wrong.  I see the guilt beneath the shame.  I see your soul through your window pain.  I see the scars that remain.  I see you Lolita, I'm looking at the Mirror on the wall, here we are again.  Through the rise and fall.  You've been my only friend.  You told me that they can understand the woman I am.  They can understand, So, why are we here?  Misunderstood, talkin' to each other again?  Looking at me now I can see my past.  Damn, I look just like my fucking DAD.  Light it up, that's smoke in mirrors.  I even look good in the broken mirror!!  I see my momma's smile, that's a blessing.  I see change.  I see the message, and no message could've been any clearer.  So, I'm startin' with the Woman In The Mirror........"

If you're satisfied with just getting by, step aside for the person who isn't! ---A. G. Gaston


Sincerely,


"L"