September 23, 2012.........
Yes, it's me, Lolita, the Walking Woman that Wins!!! And, that's right I did say "Lolita, the Walking Woman that Wins!!!" I am the one that jumped off the cliff at the beginning of the year and have been suspended in mid-air since. It hasn't been pretty, in fact, it's been pretty ugly, so much so that I wish I had at least blogged about it, but I'm not going to cry over spilled milk.
So, it's 3:45 a.m., I haven't had any sleep, I've been up all night with a restless spirit. Sir Stephen, my youngest child moved out of the house two days ago into his college dorm apartment at the University of Washington campus. I've cried so much that I don't think there's any tears left inside of me, which brings me to this blogging that I'm doing right now.
I don't know How? I don't know What? I don't know Who? I don't know Where? All I know is When and that's NOW!!!
The time has come. The time has come for everything. That is what my spirit is telling me. I get one last shot at this game called life. I have the ball and it's my turn to get off the bench and check into the game. I have been sitting on the sidelines long enough. I miss Sir Stephen soooo much that it hurts, but like that ol saying goes, "it hurts so good". As a mother that has always put his wants, wishes and dreams above any and everything, allowing him to be on that campus, surrounded by other college students, enjoying college life is rewarding in and of itself, I just have to figure out How I am going to "Do Lolita?" My plate is full. I just don't know where to start.
Wait a minute!!!...... This is where I am going to start, right here, right here in that place that doubts myself and my abilities, right here is the start, the beginning. Hellow, Lolita!! Obviously, this is my starting point, I mean shoot, gosh darn it, I am blogging!! (Okaayhh)....... I haven't blogged since April 23rd!! This is huge, major even. I am determined to finish this year the way I started. I know the race isn't given to the swiftest, nor to the strongest, but to the one who endures til the end. I could pull the blankets over my head and have a pity party. I could let my little "gazoo" sit on my shoulders and tell me I've blown it, tell me how hard it's going to be to lose 100 lbs, eat healthy and exercise, how hard it's going to be to write a book, how hard it's going to be to start a successful business, how hard it's going to be to pick back up blogging and win the power ball lottery!! (smile)( Really serious about that one), yada, yada, yada!!
"Gazoo" You're Fired!!
"As I am one with god, I am one with my good, for God is both the Giver and the Gift. I cannot separate the Giver from the Gift.
God is my unfailing supply, and large sums of money come to me quickly, under grace, in perfect ways.
Every plan my Father in heaven has not planned, shall be dissolved and dissipated, and the Divine Idea now comes to pass.
Only that which is true of God is true of me, for I and the Father are ONE.
Divine Love now dissolves and dissipates every wrong condition in my mind, body and affairs. Divine Love is the most powerful chemical in the universe, and dissolves everything which is not of itself!
Divine Love floods my consciousness with health, and every cell in my body is filled with light.
My eyes are God's eyes, I see with the eyes of spirit. I see clearly the open way; there are no obstacles on my pathway. I see clearly the perfect plan.
I am divinely sensitive to my intuitive leads, and give instant obedience to Thy will.
My ears are god's ears, I hear with the ears of spirit. I am nonresistant and am willing to be led. I hear glad tidings of great joy.
I have a perfect work, In a perfect way, I give a perfect service for perfect pay. I cast this burden on the Christ within, and I go free! ~Florence Scovel Shinn~
Unlock Tomorrow Today! ~Lolita Jackson~
Sunday, September 23, 2012
Monday, April 23, 2012
"You Are So Strong!!"
April 23, 2012.......
Every day my eyes open I reach over, grab the sheets, then I say "Thank you Lord, I am here another day!!" Every single day I wake up, I literally reach over, touch the sheets and say "Thank you Lord, I am here another day!!"
"To Thine Self Be True!!"
Luv, Lo
Every day my eyes open I reach over, grab the sheets, then I say "Thank you Lord, I am here another day!!" Every single day I wake up, I literally reach over, touch the sheets and say "Thank you Lord, I am here another day!!"
"To Thine Self Be True!!"
Luv, Lo
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
"Radiate!"
April 18, 2012......
Radiate 1. to extend, spread, or move like rays or radii from a center. 2. to emit rays, as of light or heat; irradiate. 3. to project or glow with cheerfulness, joy, etc. 3. having rays extending from a central point or part.
Have you ever met someone that is the epitome of radiance? I have the pleasure of being blessed with someone in my life that exudes radiant rays from her center, her core is a beam of light that glows with heat that's warm and cozy. Her presence is angelic, I feel a spirit of peace when I'm around her, I thank God daily for bringing her into my life.
I am so thankful today that I have two legs and two feet to walk with. I think sometimes we take the simple act of walking for granted like if it's not so special, yet walking literally is one of the healthiest, most safest exercise there is to do.
Walk!!
I'm tired right now, will talk more tomorrow......til then Good Night!
"Unlock Tomorrow, Today" ~ By Lolita Jackson
Take Care,
La La
Radiate 1. to extend, spread, or move like rays or radii from a center. 2. to emit rays, as of light or heat; irradiate. 3. to project or glow with cheerfulness, joy, etc. 3. having rays extending from a central point or part.
Have you ever met someone that is the epitome of radiance? I have the pleasure of being blessed with someone in my life that exudes radiant rays from her center, her core is a beam of light that glows with heat that's warm and cozy. Her presence is angelic, I feel a spirit of peace when I'm around her, I thank God daily for bringing her into my life.
I am so thankful today that I have two legs and two feet to walk with. I think sometimes we take the simple act of walking for granted like if it's not so special, yet walking literally is one of the healthiest, most safest exercise there is to do.
Walk!!
I'm tired right now, will talk more tomorrow......til then Good Night!
"Unlock Tomorrow, Today" ~ By Lolita Jackson
Take Care,
La La
Monday, April 16, 2012
"Take Control of Your Life Today!!"
April 16, 2012......
We have the ability to make choices in our life, the challenge is in the doing, getting up and deciding that we are important enough, loving enough to say yes to life. We must intensely be purposeful with our drive to do better when it comes to our health. We must drive ourselves with an unwavering commitment to be successful in our lives daily. We can't allow complacency to be the enemy of living our best life now. If we make the decision to daily do what we know works best for our bodies it will yield the results we desire to achieve. The key is persistence, passion, and motivation. Find that thing that motivates you and passionately go in the direction you want to go. You may not see results right away but every day persistence will grant you the desires of your heart. You must find what motivates you, and I don't care what it is, whether it's a bird singing outside in the early morning hours or an infomercial.
Like Nike...."Just Do It!!"
"Seize the time" ~ Bobby Seale
Sincerely,
Lolita
We have the ability to make choices in our life, the challenge is in the doing, getting up and deciding that we are important enough, loving enough to say yes to life. We must intensely be purposeful with our drive to do better when it comes to our health. We must drive ourselves with an unwavering commitment to be successful in our lives daily. We can't allow complacency to be the enemy of living our best life now. If we make the decision to daily do what we know works best for our bodies it will yield the results we desire to achieve. The key is persistence, passion, and motivation. Find that thing that motivates you and passionately go in the direction you want to go. You may not see results right away but every day persistence will grant you the desires of your heart. You must find what motivates you, and I don't care what it is, whether it's a bird singing outside in the early morning hours or an infomercial.
Like Nike...."Just Do It!!"
"Seize the time" ~ Bobby Seale
Sincerely,
Lolita
Sunday, April 15, 2012
"Bleeding Hearts!!"
April 14, 2012......
Tis that time of the year when we plant the flowers in the garden and this year I have some beautiful bleeding hearts growing in my garden. I love that flower, it's just beautiful. Have you ever had your heart in your body feel like it's bleeding for real? Walking wounded......that's what I call it. The thing is you can feel like your heart is open wide, needing a surgeon to come and stitch you up, and you look around and everyone else goes on with their lives, could care less if you're walking wounded or not, you better get some ointment, cleanse the wound, grab a couple of bandages and keep it moving.
Today was a beautiful day, the weather was spot on....I took a leap of faith and dabbled in a couple of things, feels real good.
Loving you more than forever, and forever more I'll always love you.......
Lolita
Tis that time of the year when we plant the flowers in the garden and this year I have some beautiful bleeding hearts growing in my garden. I love that flower, it's just beautiful. Have you ever had your heart in your body feel like it's bleeding for real? Walking wounded......that's what I call it. The thing is you can feel like your heart is open wide, needing a surgeon to come and stitch you up, and you look around and everyone else goes on with their lives, could care less if you're walking wounded or not, you better get some ointment, cleanse the wound, grab a couple of bandages and keep it moving.
Today was a beautiful day, the weather was spot on....I took a leap of faith and dabbled in a couple of things, feels real good.
Loving you more than forever, and forever more I'll always love you.......
Lolita
Friday, April 13, 2012
"Yes!!"
April 12, 2012.....
OMG!! Oh My God....I did it!! I put in that dvd and I got to gettin....Now I didn't do the entire 45 minutes but I did do 30 minutes, and for Lolita, in the shape I'm currently in, this is a major milestone, and I just got to say Thank You......
I don't know how I am going to feel tomorrow physically, but I do know that right now I feel delicious, shoot, I feel scrumptious, I know my husband could sop me up with a biscuit, ha ha ha!!
Anyway, I'm tired. I will not repeat yesterday, I didn't go to sleep at all. So, Goodnight, pleasant dreams, sleep tight and don't let the boogey man bite.
"When you've done all you can do to stand, stand!"
Lo Lo
OMG!! Oh My God....I did it!! I put in that dvd and I got to gettin....Now I didn't do the entire 45 minutes but I did do 30 minutes, and for Lolita, in the shape I'm currently in, this is a major milestone, and I just got to say Thank You......
I don't know how I am going to feel tomorrow physically, but I do know that right now I feel delicious, shoot, I feel scrumptious, I know my husband could sop me up with a biscuit, ha ha ha!!
Anyway, I'm tired. I will not repeat yesterday, I didn't go to sleep at all. So, Goodnight, pleasant dreams, sleep tight and don't let the boogey man bite.
"When you've done all you can do to stand, stand!"
Lo Lo
Thursday, April 12, 2012
"Citation!!!"
April 11, 2012.......
This notice goes out to Lolita Jackson, you have been issued a citation by the Supreme Court of the Law of the Universe....Lolita you are hearby notified that if you don't make a U-Turn and take the Road Less Traveled to an awakening of your natural inheritance of peace, prosperity, health, and love. You will be in violation of the "Law of Attraction" and said violation will put you in subjection to "Sickness & Dis-Ease!!"
You Go Sherri!!! Wow, did you hear what Sherri Shephard said last night when she was voted off dancing with the stars while she was balling her eyes out? Sherri said "that thing that scares you the most, that makes you say I don't know if I can do it I'm scared, run towards it because it's so amazing on the other side!!"
I AM THERE RIGHT NOW!! RUNNING TOWARD FEAR!! I'm terrified, I have no idea how to do what it is that I want to do. I'm not really sure of what it is that I want to do. All I know, is that change has come. It's time to change everything in my life. I can't and will not continue down the path that I've been on for as long as I can remember. Frankly speaking, the path that I call destruction. I have been my worst enemy, most critical critic, and stinkiest thinker when it comes to Lolita and what she is deserving and worthy of. I used to think that I was born taking care of other people. I now realize that my putting others in front of myself and that unyielding desire to be this nauseating, people pleasing puke is learned and will probably be hard as hell to un-learn, rewind and erase the tapes, the words, and the behavior that says as long as it's for someone else it somehow makes it okay to ignore myself and at the same time if I'm so busy putting others' needs, wants and desires before my own, it excuses and absolves me of any and all responsibility where I'm concerned. It's easier to say I just don't have time to do myself. Now I don't have a choice. I take that back, I do have a choice, today I choose to make the right choices concerning my life. I feel like a kid in a candy store, I can choose what I want, the hard part is putting in the work to get it!!
I have to work at losing 100 pounds. Yes, I said it......It finally came out of my mouth, I have 100 pounds to lose, now that's scary!! The first question is how? How does a person lose 100 pounds? I know that I must have a plan, right? So, I do have a plan.....The plan is to put one foot in front of the other and get off my butt and walk, walk, walk, walk, walk. The next step is nutrition and portion control, then I have to drink lots and lots of water to flush my system out. I am also going to cleanse my system with some detox tea and hold on for dear life........Next, I must exercise with weight training and resistance. I know I must sound like a broken record to some of you, I sound like one to myself a little, but I will keep saying it until it finally comes into fruition, until I see it come from out of the spoken word, the unseen, to the "BE" like Jesus, "Light BE" & "Light Is"...................
"It is a matter of life and death, a road either to safety or to ruin. Hence it is a subject of inquiry which can on no account be neglected."
"Walk in the path designed by rule....."
"On difficult ground keep steadily on the march"
"The consummate Leader cultivates the moral law, and strictly adheres to method and discipline; thus it is in his power to control success."
I bought a fat loss & bmi monitor last night and the results were startling!! Scared the shit out of me honestly (sorry!!) but it did. My fat percentage was over 44%, while my bmi levels were over 37%. I just stood in my bedroom and shook my head, not in disbelief but, I guess I was just numb, just numb. The calibrator didn't lie, it's up to me to decide what I am going to do about it? Now that I know, what am I going to do about it? How can I do anything other than what would be considered a healthy choice? I can't, right? I have put myself on notice, it's time for Lolita to make the choice to change.......
Sincerely,
Lo Lo
This notice goes out to Lolita Jackson, you have been issued a citation by the Supreme Court of the Law of the Universe....Lolita you are hearby notified that if you don't make a U-Turn and take the Road Less Traveled to an awakening of your natural inheritance of peace, prosperity, health, and love. You will be in violation of the "Law of Attraction" and said violation will put you in subjection to "Sickness & Dis-Ease!!"
You Go Sherri!!! Wow, did you hear what Sherri Shephard said last night when she was voted off dancing with the stars while she was balling her eyes out? Sherri said "that thing that scares you the most, that makes you say I don't know if I can do it I'm scared, run towards it because it's so amazing on the other side!!"
I AM THERE RIGHT NOW!! RUNNING TOWARD FEAR!! I'm terrified, I have no idea how to do what it is that I want to do. I'm not really sure of what it is that I want to do. All I know, is that change has come. It's time to change everything in my life. I can't and will not continue down the path that I've been on for as long as I can remember. Frankly speaking, the path that I call destruction. I have been my worst enemy, most critical critic, and stinkiest thinker when it comes to Lolita and what she is deserving and worthy of. I used to think that I was born taking care of other people. I now realize that my putting others in front of myself and that unyielding desire to be this nauseating, people pleasing puke is learned and will probably be hard as hell to un-learn, rewind and erase the tapes, the words, and the behavior that says as long as it's for someone else it somehow makes it okay to ignore myself and at the same time if I'm so busy putting others' needs, wants and desires before my own, it excuses and absolves me of any and all responsibility where I'm concerned. It's easier to say I just don't have time to do myself. Now I don't have a choice. I take that back, I do have a choice, today I choose to make the right choices concerning my life. I feel like a kid in a candy store, I can choose what I want, the hard part is putting in the work to get it!!
I have to work at losing 100 pounds. Yes, I said it......It finally came out of my mouth, I have 100 pounds to lose, now that's scary!! The first question is how? How does a person lose 100 pounds? I know that I must have a plan, right? So, I do have a plan.....The plan is to put one foot in front of the other and get off my butt and walk, walk, walk, walk, walk. The next step is nutrition and portion control, then I have to drink lots and lots of water to flush my system out. I am also going to cleanse my system with some detox tea and hold on for dear life........Next, I must exercise with weight training and resistance. I know I must sound like a broken record to some of you, I sound like one to myself a little, but I will keep saying it until it finally comes into fruition, until I see it come from out of the spoken word, the unseen, to the "BE" like Jesus, "Light BE" & "Light Is"...................
"It is a matter of life and death, a road either to safety or to ruin. Hence it is a subject of inquiry which can on no account be neglected."
"Walk in the path designed by rule....."
"On difficult ground keep steadily on the march"
"The consummate Leader cultivates the moral law, and strictly adheres to method and discipline; thus it is in his power to control success."
I bought a fat loss & bmi monitor last night and the results were startling!! Scared the shit out of me honestly (sorry!!) but it did. My fat percentage was over 44%, while my bmi levels were over 37%. I just stood in my bedroom and shook my head, not in disbelief but, I guess I was just numb, just numb. The calibrator didn't lie, it's up to me to decide what I am going to do about it? Now that I know, what am I going to do about it? How can I do anything other than what would be considered a healthy choice? I can't, right? I have put myself on notice, it's time for Lolita to make the choice to change.......
Sincerely,
Lo Lo
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
"The Agony Of The Ecstasy!!"
April 10, 2012...........
In order for me to be a "Walking Woman That Wins!!" I find that I have to take the bitter with the sweet. I have to endure the agony of the pains that my body feels when I put it to the test of endurance to run the race and finish the course that will net me the results of success when I reach my goals. The funny thing is that I haven't really gotten started the way I want to yet and the thought of it is giving me the heebie geebies, however; I'm ready!!
I'm tired tonight, literally exhausted, it's been a long day........
In every adversity, look for the benefit that can come out of it. Even bad experiences offer benefits, but you have to look for them. ~Eric V. Copage
God makes three requests of his children: Do the best you can, where you are, with what you have, now. ~African American Folklore
The chemist who can extract from his heart's elements compassion, respect, longing, patience, regret, surprise, and forgiveness and compound them into one can create that atom which is called love. ~Kahlil Gibran
Loving me more than forever, and forever more I'll always love me.......
~ Lolita Jackson
In order for me to be a "Walking Woman That Wins!!" I find that I have to take the bitter with the sweet. I have to endure the agony of the pains that my body feels when I put it to the test of endurance to run the race and finish the course that will net me the results of success when I reach my goals. The funny thing is that I haven't really gotten started the way I want to yet and the thought of it is giving me the heebie geebies, however; I'm ready!!
I'm tired tonight, literally exhausted, it's been a long day........
In every adversity, look for the benefit that can come out of it. Even bad experiences offer benefits, but you have to look for them. ~Eric V. Copage
God makes three requests of his children: Do the best you can, where you are, with what you have, now. ~African American Folklore
The chemist who can extract from his heart's elements compassion, respect, longing, patience, regret, surprise, and forgiveness and compound them into one can create that atom which is called love. ~Kahlil Gibran
Loving me more than forever, and forever more I'll always love me.......
~ Lolita Jackson
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
"Heartache"
"April 9, 2012......."
I am guilty!! I stand accused!! Would I change it? I just don't know, it's been like this all my life. I wear my heart on my sleeve. I know I've said it before, I get myself in trouble with this very thing all the time, feeling like I want to talk it through, discuss what the problem is, find a solution because it's not easy for me to fake liking a mis-understanding, or be in the presence of someone and know that there's tension in the air, and clearly see that things have changed, yet we carry on as if everything is A, okay, that is such an awkward feeling, and position to be in. As an adult I would like to think that I have the freedom to express myself openly and honestly without bias or judgement, especially when I am talking with a friend or maybe the person isn't a friend friend, but there comes a time when one may need to clear the air on a certain subject only to find that it's not okay. I am baffled by the fact that having a genuine concern about a subject matter could get one ostracized by a person or persons, that just floors me that adults form opinions about others based on something they have heard, or something that they think they know, not necessarily something that a person has done to them.
Have you ever walked into a room and the same people that loved to see you coming a week ago, even tell you that you light up the room every time you walk through the door, find it hard to look you in the eye, and the question you ask yourself is why? How could this be? The answer is I don't know, truly I don't. But what I can say today is, it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter what you think, and if you think something you better keep it to yourself because if it's not a popular opinion people will cut you like a ginzu knife cuts a cantelope!! (smile) You know that saying, sometimes you have to encourage yourself, no truer words ever spoken.
I work with students and one thing I try to instill in them is independence and leadership, especially when it comes to standing for something they believe in, or even for that matter standing up for someone that may not be the most popular kid on campus, or may be different or could just be mis-understood because you may not know that person or what's going on in their life. I try to teach them to follow the golden rule of asking themselves 3 questions: #1) Did that person do anything to you personally for you to not like them? #2) Is that person always nice to you? #3) Is there something about that person that you find interesting or that you like about that person? When they take the time to think about the answers to the questions and can honestly say that the person didn't do anything to them to be talked about, ridiculed or ostracized, the person is always nice and friendly to them, and yes they genuinely like them, then I say regardless of what the rest says, you have to stand up against bullying, because bullying comes in many forms in many ways. I let them know that a bully isn't just the person that will take your lunch money, or the person that will beat you up physically, a bully is a coward, someone that can't stand alone on how they feel, they need to be supported by the masses, the group, the click......
The dichotomy is; I tell the students to stand.....If you don't stand for something you fall for everything, yet I ......(things that make you go hmm!!)
Sometimes our hearts get broken into what feels like a million itty, bitty pieces, but it will be okay if at the end of the day you ask yourself the same questions in a different way. #1) Did I do anything to inflict harm on a person, and did I give the best I could give with the time I have? If I can honestly say yes, then that't the best I have, and yes, even as an adult, even that may not be good enough, and yes it may even be heartbreaking, but you can only give what you have and do the best you can. The bible says not to cast your pearls before swine, sometimes your jewels aren't supposed to be received by everyone and that's okay also, even Jesus said a prophet is without honor in is own town......
"As the fletcher whittles and makes straight his arrows, so the master directs his straying thoughts." ~The Buddha
"All emotions are pure which gather you and lift you up; that emotion is impure which seizes only one side of your being and so distorts you." ~Rainer Maria Rilke
"Things do not change; we change." ~Henry David Thoreau
"Under all that we think, lives all we believe, like the ultimate veil of our spirits."
~Antonio Machado
LaLaLolita
Monday, April 9, 2012
"Who Can Find A Virtuous Woman?"
April 8, 2012......
Happy Easter Everyone!! Today was absolutely beautiful!!! I just absolutely Love Life, I love being alive, living the best life that I can live, I love putting smiles of people's faces and I Love the skin I'm in. Everyday I wake up and I literally grab the sheets to see if I am here and I Thank God that I made it to be able to take another breath, it's a miracle that I don't take for granted. When I lay my head down at night most of the time I am exhausted because I push myself til I am running on fumes, wanting to make sure that I have done the best I can with the day that God has blessed me with.
I did something today that I have never done before, I went to the University of Washington and walked around and enjoyed the cherry blossom trees, they are stunningly beautiful! My husband has been trying to get me to go for years and every year I have one excuse or another and after going today I couldn't believe that me, Miss Flower Lady just now got up off of my butt and went, but I am so glad that I did. You should of seen us, we were walking around that campus like teenagers, taking pictures, climbing trees, Yes I Said It, Climbing Trees, (Okay maybe not that high) but we did take pictures in trees, on the ground in the grass, we had so much fun, it was amazing, and I was able to get my walk in without really putting any thought to it. That's what I am enjoying about my walking, I can get out and walk with purpose and before you know it I have put in a full exercise regimen without thinking about it.
I was talking to a friend of mine today and we were talking about virtuous women and that reminded me of a passage from the bible that I like. I remember when I first gave my life to Christ, I would read that scripture and would think about how badly I wanted to be a virtuous woman. I wanted to be that Lady in the scriptures, she sounded so amazing.....I equated this woman with perfection, she was something to strive for, I imagined her husband having eyes just for her, she seemed like the kind of woman that people looked up to, little kids liked her, especially little girls they adored her, she was respected in the community by everyone this woman was the woman to be. I have since not given the virtuous woman much thought until today, when my girlfriend brought up the subject of a virtuous woman, I began to think about where I've been in my life, where I am, and where I would like to go, and just how close am I to being that virtuous woman that is described in the bible?
Well, let's just say this woman sounds like the epitome of perfection, which I am a heck of a long way from, yet I can say this, I do put in the effort, yes I have a long way to go, and I know that no one is perfect, not by a long shot but it doesn't hurt to try and be the best woman or man that you can be and to me that is virtuous!!
Virtuous 1. conforming to moral and ethical principles; morally excellent; upright.
I used to want the words "she tried" on my tombstone. Now I want the words "She did it!"
~By Katherine Mary Dunham
Love Always,
LaLaLolita
Happy Easter Everyone!! Today was absolutely beautiful!!! I just absolutely Love Life, I love being alive, living the best life that I can live, I love putting smiles of people's faces and I Love the skin I'm in. Everyday I wake up and I literally grab the sheets to see if I am here and I Thank God that I made it to be able to take another breath, it's a miracle that I don't take for granted. When I lay my head down at night most of the time I am exhausted because I push myself til I am running on fumes, wanting to make sure that I have done the best I can with the day that God has blessed me with.
I did something today that I have never done before, I went to the University of Washington and walked around and enjoyed the cherry blossom trees, they are stunningly beautiful! My husband has been trying to get me to go for years and every year I have one excuse or another and after going today I couldn't believe that me, Miss Flower Lady just now got up off of my butt and went, but I am so glad that I did. You should of seen us, we were walking around that campus like teenagers, taking pictures, climbing trees, Yes I Said It, Climbing Trees, (Okay maybe not that high) but we did take pictures in trees, on the ground in the grass, we had so much fun, it was amazing, and I was able to get my walk in without really putting any thought to it. That's what I am enjoying about my walking, I can get out and walk with purpose and before you know it I have put in a full exercise regimen without thinking about it.
I was talking to a friend of mine today and we were talking about virtuous women and that reminded me of a passage from the bible that I like. I remember when I first gave my life to Christ, I would read that scripture and would think about how badly I wanted to be a virtuous woman. I wanted to be that Lady in the scriptures, she sounded so amazing.....I equated this woman with perfection, she was something to strive for, I imagined her husband having eyes just for her, she seemed like the kind of woman that people looked up to, little kids liked her, especially little girls they adored her, she was respected in the community by everyone this woman was the woman to be. I have since not given the virtuous woman much thought until today, when my girlfriend brought up the subject of a virtuous woman, I began to think about where I've been in my life, where I am, and where I would like to go, and just how close am I to being that virtuous woman that is described in the bible?
Well, let's just say this woman sounds like the epitome of perfection, which I am a heck of a long way from, yet I can say this, I do put in the effort, yes I have a long way to go, and I know that no one is perfect, not by a long shot but it doesn't hurt to try and be the best woman or man that you can be and to me that is virtuous!!
Virtuous 1. conforming to moral and ethical principles; morally excellent; upright.
I used to want the words "she tried" on my tombstone. Now I want the words "She did it!"
~By Katherine Mary Dunham
Love Always,
LaLaLolita
Saturday, April 7, 2012
"Bottom Line!!"
April 6, 2012......
Do you have a bottom line? Is there a line, boundaries in your life that cannot/should not be crossed? The question is have you made that bottom line clear? I know that must not be the case for me, I must not be clear enough about my bottom line because daily I find myself continually stating that I have a bottom line, saying hey you're going too far, stop and don't go there, it's like Tyrese says, "this is my bottom line, do not cross it." Tyrese also says that if you accept disrespect, then it is expected that you will be disrespected.
In order to take care of your health and put yourself first in your daily life and on your list of daily things to do, you may find yourself letting the people around you know that the things that they used to do by way of putting demands on your time are no longer acceptable and that they will also have to be comfortable hearing the word NO from you. That's not an easy task, doing so may require you to set boundaries if you haven't done that before and making it clear what your bottom line is, that is key.......That way you won't find yourself arguing and having any misunderstanding. I am finding for myself that I have to be clear, Lolita's health comes first, point blank period!!
"To laugh often and much;
to win the respect of intelligent people
and affection of children; to earn the
appreciation of honest critics and endure
the betrayal of false friends;
to appreciate beauty, to find the best in others;
to leave the world a bit better, whether by a
healthy child, a garden patch or a
redeemed social condition; to know even
one life has breathed easier because you
have lived. This is to have succeeded."
~By Ralph Waldo Emerson
LaLaLolita
Do you have a bottom line? Is there a line, boundaries in your life that cannot/should not be crossed? The question is have you made that bottom line clear? I know that must not be the case for me, I must not be clear enough about my bottom line because daily I find myself continually stating that I have a bottom line, saying hey you're going too far, stop and don't go there, it's like Tyrese says, "this is my bottom line, do not cross it." Tyrese also says that if you accept disrespect, then it is expected that you will be disrespected.
In order to take care of your health and put yourself first in your daily life and on your list of daily things to do, you may find yourself letting the people around you know that the things that they used to do by way of putting demands on your time are no longer acceptable and that they will also have to be comfortable hearing the word NO from you. That's not an easy task, doing so may require you to set boundaries if you haven't done that before and making it clear what your bottom line is, that is key.......That way you won't find yourself arguing and having any misunderstanding. I am finding for myself that I have to be clear, Lolita's health comes first, point blank period!!
"To laugh often and much;
to win the respect of intelligent people
and affection of children; to earn the
appreciation of honest critics and endure
the betrayal of false friends;
to appreciate beauty, to find the best in others;
to leave the world a bit better, whether by a
healthy child, a garden patch or a
redeemed social condition; to know even
one life has breathed easier because you
have lived. This is to have succeeded."
~By Ralph Waldo Emerson
LaLaLolita
Friday, April 6, 2012
"Now Power!"
"April 5, 2012....."
Today I brought back out a book that I have read a couple of times called "The Power of Now." What I like about the book is that the author does a good job of having the reader get in touch with his/her inner woman or man in regards to excuses and the past. The author "Eckhart Tolle" suggests that our minds do a great job analytically creating a false ego that finds comfort in pain and suffering. I remember when I first read the book I was so uncomfortable because he dared to question religion as I knew it, imparting uncomplicated clarity of ancient spiritual masters with a simple yet profound message that radically changed my view with a heightened awareness spiritually that helped to connect me with the indestructible essence of my inner being, my soul woman.
I remember first reading about the pain body that is connected with my past and how the ego identifies unconsciously with pain and how pain can accumulate and is a negative energy field that will occupy our mind and body because it wants to survive like any other entity in existence that wants to rise up and take you over, pain wants to become us, pain needs it's food from me and it will feed and resonate on any experience that will give it energy in any form; anger, destructiveness, hatred, grief, emotional drama,violence and yes even illness.
I pulled my book out again today because I use that book as a tool, a source of reference, a reminder of what I'm dealing with when I find myself being bogged down with stuff trying to compile upon me, one thing after another, after another. I use the Power of Now to identify the pain so that I can expose it for what it is and not give my pain any further pain to feed upon. I find it to be a fascinating process because once the source is identified it makes the transition a lot smoother, my pain-body has had a lot of hurt on so many levels that I can't begin to count nor identify until situations arise and then I can say if a particular pain body is familiar or not because, like I said, some pain will remain dormant until it comes across a negative energy field that it can align itself with and then try to feed upon it and grow in your life.
It's moments like these that I embrace fully to allow for healing and transformation to occur. I call it my 15 minute rule, my knowing minutes. I give a situation 15 minutes, to vent it, process it, sit on it, think about it, then I move on to allow a soulution.
If ever there was a time to be a "Walking Woman That Wins" it's now......Walking allows me to take deep breaths, in and out while enjoying the crisp, fresh outdoor weather. I needed that today. I got out into the sunshine and started walking, it felt delicious.
I watched a new reality tv show today about Mary Mary and I heard a little of their song "Walking" I want to share the lyrics of that song with you.
"Walking"
"Tell me what you see when I pass by
A shadow, a cloud, or a line in the sky
Am I getting you wrong or am I getting you right
Well, all I can take is one,
One step at a time
Look at me, I'm trying
Everyday, I fall down
I make mistakes
Get back up
Try again
Next time that you see me
I'm walking, I'm walking, I'm walking
Some people say walking takes too long
But I say with walking you can't go wrong
Why should you rush your way through life
You won't get very far, running all the time
I'm walking, I'm walking, I'm walking
What does my life say about me
Can anyone see
Does it show I rock the greatest
I cant't get back the time I spent
Use the rest of it
To show all the world how I made it
I'm walking, I'm walking, I'm walking!!"
In every crisis, there is a message. Crises are nature's way of forcing change-breaking down old structures, shaking loose those negative habits so that something new and better can take their place. ~By Susan Taylor
"I can't believe my good fortune, and I am just so grateful, to be a black woman. A Black American woman. I would be so jealous if I were anything else." ~By Maya Angelou
"To be a champion you must believe you are the best. If you're not, pretend you are."
~By Muhammad Ali
"Unlock Tomorrow-Today" ~ Lolita Jackson
Loving you more than forever, and forever more I'll always love you...... ~ Lolita Jackson
Today I brought back out a book that I have read a couple of times called "The Power of Now." What I like about the book is that the author does a good job of having the reader get in touch with his/her inner woman or man in regards to excuses and the past. The author "Eckhart Tolle" suggests that our minds do a great job analytically creating a false ego that finds comfort in pain and suffering. I remember when I first read the book I was so uncomfortable because he dared to question religion as I knew it, imparting uncomplicated clarity of ancient spiritual masters with a simple yet profound message that radically changed my view with a heightened awareness spiritually that helped to connect me with the indestructible essence of my inner being, my soul woman.
I remember first reading about the pain body that is connected with my past and how the ego identifies unconsciously with pain and how pain can accumulate and is a negative energy field that will occupy our mind and body because it wants to survive like any other entity in existence that wants to rise up and take you over, pain wants to become us, pain needs it's food from me and it will feed and resonate on any experience that will give it energy in any form; anger, destructiveness, hatred, grief, emotional drama,violence and yes even illness.
I pulled my book out again today because I use that book as a tool, a source of reference, a reminder of what I'm dealing with when I find myself being bogged down with stuff trying to compile upon me, one thing after another, after another. I use the Power of Now to identify the pain so that I can expose it for what it is and not give my pain any further pain to feed upon. I find it to be a fascinating process because once the source is identified it makes the transition a lot smoother, my pain-body has had a lot of hurt on so many levels that I can't begin to count nor identify until situations arise and then I can say if a particular pain body is familiar or not because, like I said, some pain will remain dormant until it comes across a negative energy field that it can align itself with and then try to feed upon it and grow in your life.
It's moments like these that I embrace fully to allow for healing and transformation to occur. I call it my 15 minute rule, my knowing minutes. I give a situation 15 minutes, to vent it, process it, sit on it, think about it, then I move on to allow a soulution.
If ever there was a time to be a "Walking Woman That Wins" it's now......Walking allows me to take deep breaths, in and out while enjoying the crisp, fresh outdoor weather. I needed that today. I got out into the sunshine and started walking, it felt delicious.
I watched a new reality tv show today about Mary Mary and I heard a little of their song "Walking" I want to share the lyrics of that song with you.
"Walking"
"Tell me what you see when I pass by
A shadow, a cloud, or a line in the sky
Am I getting you wrong or am I getting you right
Well, all I can take is one,
One step at a time
Look at me, I'm trying
Everyday, I fall down
I make mistakes
Get back up
Try again
Next time that you see me
I'm walking, I'm walking, I'm walking
Some people say walking takes too long
But I say with walking you can't go wrong
Why should you rush your way through life
You won't get very far, running all the time
I'm walking, I'm walking, I'm walking
What does my life say about me
Can anyone see
Does it show I rock the greatest
I cant't get back the time I spent
Use the rest of it
To show all the world how I made it
I'm walking, I'm walking, I'm walking!!"
In every crisis, there is a message. Crises are nature's way of forcing change-breaking down old structures, shaking loose those negative habits so that something new and better can take their place. ~By Susan Taylor
"I can't believe my good fortune, and I am just so grateful, to be a black woman. A Black American woman. I would be so jealous if I were anything else." ~By Maya Angelou
"To be a champion you must believe you are the best. If you're not, pretend you are."
~By Muhammad Ali
"Unlock Tomorrow-Today" ~ Lolita Jackson
Loving you more than forever, and forever more I'll always love you...... ~ Lolita Jackson
Thursday, April 5, 2012
"Never Too Late!!"
April 4, 2012.......
Ready, Set, Go!! That's the way I feel today. I am ready, I am getting set to go. Last night I went for a walk at 2:00 a.m. I know that's probably not the best time to go for a walk but there is something about getting out into the fresh, crisp night air and taking a walk. Today was a beautiful day to get out of the house and go for a nice stroll in the neighborhood, looking at the neighbors yards and seeing how people are planting their flowers, getting rid of winter debris and doing some spring cleaning. I too got out in my garden and planted some beautiful flowers as well as some edible fruit plants, I'm excited to see how they turn out, I found a very unusual plant called a "pink lemonade blueberry" the pictures look amazing, I just want to seem them bud because they are so unique!!
I was talking to a friend last night and we were talking about making New Year's resolutions and how most of the time when people don't stick to them or they fall off they tend to stay off, so I was telling her that the same thing happened to me this year, I started out the New Year with these grandiose plans, big ideas and dreams, I was ready to conquer the world, well, life happened. I had some lose ends that I needed to tighten up, some things that needed closure as far as my health is concerned and I couldn't put it off any longer, believe me I tried. There was no way that I wanted to interrupt my program knowing that I was going to have to start all over again. I knew that such an interruption of six weeks could of side lined me for a whole year if I would resort back to old behavior, stinking thinking is what I call it, that place of comfort for me, that place that's very familiar. Well, there's something wonderful about this year compared to all the other year's that I have set resolutions, this year I've changed on the inside, I see the end in my mind and I want it. As scary as things tend to be I know that a new day brings about another opportunity to move forward no matter what. It's not too late!! It's Never Too Late!! I have practically the whole year ahead of me to make it happen!!
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
~By Marianne Williamson
"For things to change, you've got to change; otherwise nothing much will change." by Jim Rohn
The Challenge
Let others lead small lives,
but not you.
Let others argue over small things,
but not you.
Let others cry over small hurts,
but not you.
Let others leave their future
in someone else's hands,
but not you." ~ By Jim Rohn
LaLaLolita
Ready, Set, Go!! That's the way I feel today. I am ready, I am getting set to go. Last night I went for a walk at 2:00 a.m. I know that's probably not the best time to go for a walk but there is something about getting out into the fresh, crisp night air and taking a walk. Today was a beautiful day to get out of the house and go for a nice stroll in the neighborhood, looking at the neighbors yards and seeing how people are planting their flowers, getting rid of winter debris and doing some spring cleaning. I too got out in my garden and planted some beautiful flowers as well as some edible fruit plants, I'm excited to see how they turn out, I found a very unusual plant called a "pink lemonade blueberry" the pictures look amazing, I just want to seem them bud because they are so unique!!
I was talking to a friend last night and we were talking about making New Year's resolutions and how most of the time when people don't stick to them or they fall off they tend to stay off, so I was telling her that the same thing happened to me this year, I started out the New Year with these grandiose plans, big ideas and dreams, I was ready to conquer the world, well, life happened. I had some lose ends that I needed to tighten up, some things that needed closure as far as my health is concerned and I couldn't put it off any longer, believe me I tried. There was no way that I wanted to interrupt my program knowing that I was going to have to start all over again. I knew that such an interruption of six weeks could of side lined me for a whole year if I would resort back to old behavior, stinking thinking is what I call it, that place of comfort for me, that place that's very familiar. Well, there's something wonderful about this year compared to all the other year's that I have set resolutions, this year I've changed on the inside, I see the end in my mind and I want it. As scary as things tend to be I know that a new day brings about another opportunity to move forward no matter what. It's not too late!! It's Never Too Late!! I have practically the whole year ahead of me to make it happen!!
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
~By Marianne Williamson
"For things to change, you've got to change; otherwise nothing much will change." by Jim Rohn
The Challenge
Let others lead small lives,
but not you.
Let others argue over small things,
but not you.
Let others cry over small hurts,
but not you.
Let others leave their future
in someone else's hands,
but not you." ~ By Jim Rohn
LaLaLolita
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
"Integrity!!"
April 3, 2012.......
Has something ever just bugged the living day lights out of you so much so that you find your soul crying out? I am in that place, that space where I know that I am compromising my integrity, the integral part of my genuine, authentic self, and to that I say NO!! I can't rush God, he's not finished with me yet, I am still a work in progress and my problem is that I do want to rush him, I want to rush my situation and circumstances. There's a part of me that feels like I must help God out, as if God doesn't know what he's doing. I get nervous and begin to panic when I can't see the end from the beginning and I know that that's where faith must kick in, my faith has to be the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of the unseen. I have to stand and when I've done all I can do to stand, I must stand some more, regardless of what it looks like, regardless of what it feels like.......the pain, the anguish, I don't want to endure anymore is what I hear and tell myself, yet I know that there must be a lesson in all of this for me and if I don't take the test the way the teacher has written it and I go and try to make my little changes along the way then what I am essentially doing consequently is really just cheating........what I am ultimately saying to God is, "I don't like this test, I will design my own, or God just look the other way I'll help you out a little over here"
NOT!!
It doesn't matter how many tears I may have to cry, then I guess I will cry. It doesn't matter how lonely I will be, I guess I better find me a good book. It doesn't matter how much pain I have to endure, then I will endure it, because this I know, there isn't a tear in this world or a pain in this universe that compares to a compromised integrity, that is a soul pain, when your integrity is compromised that goes in on the deepest of levels, cuts to the core, and I have been cut from one side of my body to the next and never, ever have I felt nor endured any infliction of pain like that of a self-inflicted pain of the spirit man, the soul man that cries out NO-Lo, Don't Go!!
I know that I must be right on the cusp of something great, something bigger than I could think or imagine because the devil is so damn busy, attacking me on every level, especially in the area of my finances, this is where he'll trip you up, make you stumble, shut everything down, shut everything off and then say, now what are you going to do? Show you a way out, take you to the top of the city like he did Jesus and say "I will give it all to you, BUT?" The tempter, we must be careful with what the bible calls divers temptation, my grandmothers used to say "That ol' devil" They were right, that ol' devil, sits in the cut, and patiently waits. I am just sitting here as I am writing, I'm thinking about how clever, sly and cunning the enemy is, he's a hater and I feel stupid right about now, I let my guards down. I allowed the enemy, En-E-Me......
I don't want to be a statistic, a coulda, woulda, shoulda!! My tombstone reading that my talents, dreams, goals, ambitions are buried in that grave unfulfilled, (that ain't cute, nor is it sexxxy). That's Not Hott!!
So, it's soulution time!! What am I going to do about it? First things first. #1) Forgiveness..Dear Heavenly Father please forgive me for being lead astray, missing the mark, and quite frankly please forgive me for being afraid, and yes I said it, being afraid, having FEAR, fear of loneliness, change, & courage and equally as important, I today give Lolita permission to forgive Lolita!! #2) Action......The time has come for me to take action in all areas in MY life. If I need someone to show me how to manage my finances and show me how to make a budget and stick to it then I will find that person and do it!! I realize that I don't know how to manage money properly, I have champagne dreams on a beer budget. I will take a more aggressive action with my health, I am a "Walking Woman that Wins" but I also need to step it up in other areas. I will take action in my spirituality and work on my soul woman..... #3) Organization......OMG!! I am so un-organized that I can't see straight. It's ridiculous how un-organized I am, if I just start there everything else probably will work itself out...lol. #4) Time Management.... I must put myself on a clock and start using it. My time isn't managed from one minute to the next. I have got to manage every minute of every day for myself and I may need a personal assistant to help out. When I get my finances in order and figure out how much of an allowance I will be able to yield to myself I would be more than willing to hire a personal assistant as well as a house keeper to tie up some of the loose ends in my life.
1. Integrity; uncompromising adherence to moral and ethical principles; soundness of moral character, honesty 2. the state of being whole or entire;
2. Integral; of or being as an essential part of the whole; necessary to completeness;
Until I get my weight under control I will always feel like I have compromised my integrity. I won't feel whole, entire,or complete, my weight is obese and to that I say "Hell NO, Lo Don't Go!!" Being healthy, fit and lean has to be incorporated as an integral part of my very existence, that is essential and necessary for Lolita to be complete, un-compromised........
"We cannot choose how many years we will live, but we can choose how much life those years will have. We cannot control the beauty of our face, but we can control the expression on it. We cannot control life's difficult moments, but we can choose to make life less difficult. We cannot control the negative atmosphere of the world, but we can control the atmosphere of our minds. Too often, we try to choose to control things we cannot. Too seldom, we choose to control what we can......our attitude." By John Maxwell
" I have to live with myself, and so
I want to be fit for myself to know,
I want to be able, as days go by,
Always to look myself straight in the eye;
I don't want to stand, with the setting sun,
And hate myself for things I have done.
I don't want to keep on a closet shelf
A lot of secrets about myself
And fool myself, as I come and go,
Into thinking that nobody else will know
The kind of man I really am;
I don't want to dress up myself in sham.
I want to go out with my head erect,
I want to deserve all men's respect;
But here in the struggle for fame and pelf
I want to be able to like myself.
I don't want to look at myself and know
That I'm bluster and bluff and empty show.
I can never hide myself from me;
I see what others may never see;
I know what others may never see;
I know what others may never know,
I never can fool myself, and so,
Whatever happens, I want to be
Self-respecting and conscience free." By John Maxwell
"Though you cannot go back
and make a brand new start, my friend
Anyone can start from now
and make a brand new end!!!" By John Maxwell
"Loving you more than forever, and forever more I'll always love you....... By Lolita Jackson
Has something ever just bugged the living day lights out of you so much so that you find your soul crying out? I am in that place, that space where I know that I am compromising my integrity, the integral part of my genuine, authentic self, and to that I say NO!! I can't rush God, he's not finished with me yet, I am still a work in progress and my problem is that I do want to rush him, I want to rush my situation and circumstances. There's a part of me that feels like I must help God out, as if God doesn't know what he's doing. I get nervous and begin to panic when I can't see the end from the beginning and I know that that's where faith must kick in, my faith has to be the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of the unseen. I have to stand and when I've done all I can do to stand, I must stand some more, regardless of what it looks like, regardless of what it feels like.......the pain, the anguish, I don't want to endure anymore is what I hear and tell myself, yet I know that there must be a lesson in all of this for me and if I don't take the test the way the teacher has written it and I go and try to make my little changes along the way then what I am essentially doing consequently is really just cheating........what I am ultimately saying to God is, "I don't like this test, I will design my own, or God just look the other way I'll help you out a little over here"
NOT!!
It doesn't matter how many tears I may have to cry, then I guess I will cry. It doesn't matter how lonely I will be, I guess I better find me a good book. It doesn't matter how much pain I have to endure, then I will endure it, because this I know, there isn't a tear in this world or a pain in this universe that compares to a compromised integrity, that is a soul pain, when your integrity is compromised that goes in on the deepest of levels, cuts to the core, and I have been cut from one side of my body to the next and never, ever have I felt nor endured any infliction of pain like that of a self-inflicted pain of the spirit man, the soul man that cries out NO-Lo, Don't Go!!
I know that I must be right on the cusp of something great, something bigger than I could think or imagine because the devil is so damn busy, attacking me on every level, especially in the area of my finances, this is where he'll trip you up, make you stumble, shut everything down, shut everything off and then say, now what are you going to do? Show you a way out, take you to the top of the city like he did Jesus and say "I will give it all to you, BUT?" The tempter, we must be careful with what the bible calls divers temptation, my grandmothers used to say "That ol' devil" They were right, that ol' devil, sits in the cut, and patiently waits. I am just sitting here as I am writing, I'm thinking about how clever, sly and cunning the enemy is, he's a hater and I feel stupid right about now, I let my guards down. I allowed the enemy, En-E-Me......
I don't want to be a statistic, a coulda, woulda, shoulda!! My tombstone reading that my talents, dreams, goals, ambitions are buried in that grave unfulfilled, (that ain't cute, nor is it sexxxy). That's Not Hott!!
So, it's soulution time!! What am I going to do about it? First things first. #1) Forgiveness..Dear Heavenly Father please forgive me for being lead astray, missing the mark, and quite frankly please forgive me for being afraid, and yes I said it, being afraid, having FEAR, fear of loneliness, change, & courage and equally as important, I today give Lolita permission to forgive Lolita!! #2) Action......The time has come for me to take action in all areas in MY life. If I need someone to show me how to manage my finances and show me how to make a budget and stick to it then I will find that person and do it!! I realize that I don't know how to manage money properly, I have champagne dreams on a beer budget. I will take a more aggressive action with my health, I am a "Walking Woman that Wins" but I also need to step it up in other areas. I will take action in my spirituality and work on my soul woman..... #3) Organization......OMG!! I am so un-organized that I can't see straight. It's ridiculous how un-organized I am, if I just start there everything else probably will work itself out...lol. #4) Time Management.... I must put myself on a clock and start using it. My time isn't managed from one minute to the next. I have got to manage every minute of every day for myself and I may need a personal assistant to help out. When I get my finances in order and figure out how much of an allowance I will be able to yield to myself I would be more than willing to hire a personal assistant as well as a house keeper to tie up some of the loose ends in my life.
1. Integrity; uncompromising adherence to moral and ethical principles; soundness of moral character, honesty 2. the state of being whole or entire;
2. Integral; of or being as an essential part of the whole; necessary to completeness;
Until I get my weight under control I will always feel like I have compromised my integrity. I won't feel whole, entire,or complete, my weight is obese and to that I say "Hell NO, Lo Don't Go!!" Being healthy, fit and lean has to be incorporated as an integral part of my very existence, that is essential and necessary for Lolita to be complete, un-compromised........
"We cannot choose how many years we will live, but we can choose how much life those years will have. We cannot control the beauty of our face, but we can control the expression on it. We cannot control life's difficult moments, but we can choose to make life less difficult. We cannot control the negative atmosphere of the world, but we can control the atmosphere of our minds. Too often, we try to choose to control things we cannot. Too seldom, we choose to control what we can......our attitude." By John Maxwell
" I have to live with myself, and so
I want to be fit for myself to know,
I want to be able, as days go by,
Always to look myself straight in the eye;
I don't want to stand, with the setting sun,
And hate myself for things I have done.
I don't want to keep on a closet shelf
A lot of secrets about myself
And fool myself, as I come and go,
Into thinking that nobody else will know
The kind of man I really am;
I don't want to dress up myself in sham.
I want to go out with my head erect,
I want to deserve all men's respect;
But here in the struggle for fame and pelf
I want to be able to like myself.
I don't want to look at myself and know
That I'm bluster and bluff and empty show.
I can never hide myself from me;
I see what others may never see;
I know what others may never see;
I know what others may never know,
I never can fool myself, and so,
Whatever happens, I want to be
Self-respecting and conscience free." By John Maxwell
"Though you cannot go back
and make a brand new start, my friend
Anyone can start from now
and make a brand new end!!!" By John Maxwell
"Loving you more than forever, and forever more I'll always love you....... By Lolita Jackson
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
"What you say, is what you get!!"
April 2, 2012......
I believe that I am a child of the most high God and being a child of God, I believe that I am created in God's image and likeness, which has been having me doing a lot of soul searching and thinking lately. In the book of Genesis, the first book of the bible says that every time God "Said" whatever God spoke it came to be!! So, if I am created in his image and likeness, as God's child, I too must be capable of the same thing, that being said, I have decided to walk in the glory of my Father God.
I hear the Holy Spirit telling me that what's hindering me from accomplishing my goals is the very words that I have been speaking out of my mouth. God will honor his word, and his word says that "whosoever shall believe that those things which he saith shall come to pass....shall have whatsoever he saith"
I will put myself in a position to receive God's best for my life by speaking his word. God's creative power is still just as it was in the beginning of time, when he stood there and said, "Light---Be," and light was.
Lolita Jackson
I believe that I am a child of the most high God and being a child of God, I believe that I am created in God's image and likeness, which has been having me doing a lot of soul searching and thinking lately. In the book of Genesis, the first book of the bible says that every time God "Said" whatever God spoke it came to be!! So, if I am created in his image and likeness, as God's child, I too must be capable of the same thing, that being said, I have decided to walk in the glory of my Father God.
I hear the Holy Spirit telling me that what's hindering me from accomplishing my goals is the very words that I have been speaking out of my mouth. God will honor his word, and his word says that "whosoever shall believe that those things which he saith shall come to pass....shall have whatsoever he saith"
I will put myself in a position to receive God's best for my life by speaking his word. God's creative power is still just as it was in the beginning of time, when he stood there and said, "Light---Be," and light was.
Lolita Jackson
Sunday, April 1, 2012
"Courage"
"April 1, 2012........"
I must start my blog by first apologizing for not blogging for 1 month, the last time you heard from me was on March 1, 2012. On that day I was rendered incapacitated for reasons I'm unable to disclose, as well, I wasn't prepared for the length of time it would take for me to recover wholly, mind, body and soul. I took a hit, you've heard that saying, "take a licking and keep on ticking." My tick, was tocked. Still waters do run deep, for the last month I've been numb, walking around upside down and as the days would pass by it became easier and easier to settle in to my comfort zone, the place that would have me start something and not finish it, the place that would have me set a resolution and not complete it, bury my head in the sand and say "next year I promise I'll stick to the plan, next year I'll be ready, I couldn't possibly pick the ball up and go from here."
Or, could I? The answer is a resounding YES!! My YES takes courage. I am looking FEAR in the face with a made up mind to continue on the road to recovery wholly, no matter what it takes, no matter how many times I drop the ball, I'll find it and pick it up again. Who says that I can't? Oh, wait a minute, I know, it's been me, I've been telling myself a million times that I can't, that I can't change horses in the middle of the stream. That's the lie I've been listening to and some how I have bought in to that lie when the opposite is what matters, if you are on the horse and he breaks down in the middle of the stream you better get off and get yourself a new one, change horses in the middle of the stream if the horse you're on is the wrong horse!!
Making the decision to get back on my blog today didn't happen because I was waiting for one month to go by, it has happened due to a myriad of circumstances that has led me to face Lolita. There was no big bang, no lightening came and struck me, nope, just a still quiet voice that said now is the time, turn around, don't go that way, hold on, be patient, don't be a pig returning to vomit. Yes, Lolita it will take strength, yes Lolita you will need to be courageous, and yes, you will probably be lonely for now but you must adhere to the clarion call on your life, your purpose Lolita.
Today, I have the wonderful opportunity to re-write my story. I can write it to say whatever I want it to say and to that I say "Give me the Pen and Paper boo boo!!" This is wonderful to know that if God be for me than who can be against me? Am I scared? You bet your sweet little ass I am!! However; I'm excited.
Toward the light that shines so bright.........
You are here to enable the divine purpose of the universe to unfold. That is how important you are!
by Eckhart Tolle
The Audacity of Hope by President Barack Obama
I must start my blog by first apologizing for not blogging for 1 month, the last time you heard from me was on March 1, 2012. On that day I was rendered incapacitated for reasons I'm unable to disclose, as well, I wasn't prepared for the length of time it would take for me to recover wholly, mind, body and soul. I took a hit, you've heard that saying, "take a licking and keep on ticking." My tick, was tocked. Still waters do run deep, for the last month I've been numb, walking around upside down and as the days would pass by it became easier and easier to settle in to my comfort zone, the place that would have me start something and not finish it, the place that would have me set a resolution and not complete it, bury my head in the sand and say "next year I promise I'll stick to the plan, next year I'll be ready, I couldn't possibly pick the ball up and go from here."
Or, could I? The answer is a resounding YES!! My YES takes courage. I am looking FEAR in the face with a made up mind to continue on the road to recovery wholly, no matter what it takes, no matter how many times I drop the ball, I'll find it and pick it up again. Who says that I can't? Oh, wait a minute, I know, it's been me, I've been telling myself a million times that I can't, that I can't change horses in the middle of the stream. That's the lie I've been listening to and some how I have bought in to that lie when the opposite is what matters, if you are on the horse and he breaks down in the middle of the stream you better get off and get yourself a new one, change horses in the middle of the stream if the horse you're on is the wrong horse!!
Making the decision to get back on my blog today didn't happen because I was waiting for one month to go by, it has happened due to a myriad of circumstances that has led me to face Lolita. There was no big bang, no lightening came and struck me, nope, just a still quiet voice that said now is the time, turn around, don't go that way, hold on, be patient, don't be a pig returning to vomit. Yes, Lolita it will take strength, yes Lolita you will need to be courageous, and yes, you will probably be lonely for now but you must adhere to the clarion call on your life, your purpose Lolita.
Today, I have the wonderful opportunity to re-write my story. I can write it to say whatever I want it to say and to that I say "Give me the Pen and Paper boo boo!!" This is wonderful to know that if God be for me than who can be against me? Am I scared? You bet your sweet little ass I am!! However; I'm excited.
Toward the light that shines so bright.........
You are here to enable the divine purpose of the universe to unfold. That is how important you are!
by Eckhart Tolle
The Audacity of Hope by President Barack Obama
Thursday, March 1, 2012
"23 Psalms....."
February 29, 2012........
I just blogged one of the most beautiful blogs to date for the last hour, actually, it has been for the last two hours, and I don't know where it is. I selected publish post, and the blog went to outer space. So, I guess I just needed to get it out because I am not going to re-write it at this moment because I am extremely tired.
What I will say is that I am looking forward to completion and a new beginning. I want to Thank God for everything. I remember the first time I accepted Jesus into my heart as my personal Lord and Savior, I wanted to save the world and tell the world. I was reminded of the power of prayer a couple of days ago and just how good God is. I've been taking a personal inventory of my spirit and I hear you Lord. Thank you for the angels that you sent to me.
My soul says yes!!
In Jesus Name, I pray.....Amen!!
"Loving you more than forever, And forever more I'll always Love You. Loving you more than forever, And forever more I'll always want you. Loving you more than forever, And forever more I'll always need you. Loving you more than forever, And forever more I'll always breathe you. Loving you more than forever, And Forever More I'll Always Love You!! ~ By Lolita Jackson
I just blogged one of the most beautiful blogs to date for the last hour, actually, it has been for the last two hours, and I don't know where it is. I selected publish post, and the blog went to outer space. So, I guess I just needed to get it out because I am not going to re-write it at this moment because I am extremely tired.
What I will say is that I am looking forward to completion and a new beginning. I want to Thank God for everything. I remember the first time I accepted Jesus into my heart as my personal Lord and Savior, I wanted to save the world and tell the world. I was reminded of the power of prayer a couple of days ago and just how good God is. I've been taking a personal inventory of my spirit and I hear you Lord. Thank you for the angels that you sent to me.
"The Lord is my shephard,
I shall not want
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures;
He leadeth me besides the still waters.
He restoreth my soul
He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I will fear no evil
For thou art with me
Thy rod and Thy staff
They comfort me
Thy preparest my table before me, in the presence of mine enemies
Thou anointest my head with oil;
My cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
All the days of my life.....And I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever more.......
~ Book of Psalms......
In Jesus Name, I pray.....Amen!!
"Loving you more than forever, And forever more I'll always Love You. Loving you more than forever, And forever more I'll always want you. Loving you more than forever, And forever more I'll always need you. Loving you more than forever, And forever more I'll always breathe you. Loving you more than forever, And Forever More I'll Always Love You!! ~ By Lolita Jackson
Monday, February 27, 2012
"Walk To Win!"
February 26, 2012.......
Today was a beautiful day. People were out walking enjoying the crisp, fresh winter sunshine. I loved it!! I seen couples out walking hand in hand, dogs being walked by little kids, babies out in their strollers with parents that were getting their exercise on this lovely day.
This is what a walking woman that wins is all about, taking advantage of life and getting outside the house to feel the outdoor fresh air blowing on my face, while my hair is blowing in the wind......
I never knew that I would enjoy walking so much, I guess I never thought about walking as a big deal until I was faced with the possibility of never walking again, looking at elderly people strolling about town just walking away, thinking "wow" I wish I could do that, walk down the street without pain. Now I don't take it for granted not in the least. I'm just out there now, being eternally grateful!!
"My Influence"
"My life shall touch a dozen lives
Before this day is done.
Leave countless marks of good or ill,
E'er sets the evening sun.
This, the wish I always wish,
The prayer I always pray;
Lord, may my life help others lives
It touches by the way." ~ By John Maxwell
"If you want the rainbow, you have to put up with the rain." ~ By Dolly Parton
"The key to success, unlock tomorrow, today..." ~ By Lolita Jackson
Today was a beautiful day. People were out walking enjoying the crisp, fresh winter sunshine. I loved it!! I seen couples out walking hand in hand, dogs being walked by little kids, babies out in their strollers with parents that were getting their exercise on this lovely day.
This is what a walking woman that wins is all about, taking advantage of life and getting outside the house to feel the outdoor fresh air blowing on my face, while my hair is blowing in the wind......
I never knew that I would enjoy walking so much, I guess I never thought about walking as a big deal until I was faced with the possibility of never walking again, looking at elderly people strolling about town just walking away, thinking "wow" I wish I could do that, walk down the street without pain. Now I don't take it for granted not in the least. I'm just out there now, being eternally grateful!!
"My Influence"
"My life shall touch a dozen lives
Before this day is done.
Leave countless marks of good or ill,
E'er sets the evening sun.
This, the wish I always wish,
The prayer I always pray;
Lord, may my life help others lives
It touches by the way." ~ By John Maxwell
"If you want the rainbow, you have to put up with the rain." ~ By Dolly Parton
"The key to success, unlock tomorrow, today..." ~ By Lolita Jackson
Saturday, February 25, 2012
"7 Habits of Highly Effective People"
February 25, 2012........
I've been reading about the 7 Habits of Highly Effective People and I see how in some areas I'm effective and in others I am not. I am a work in progress and I welcome progression in my life. What it tells me is that I don't have it all figured out and I embrace the journey of discovery. I am enjoying my life today, the adventures I find myself on in trying to become a highly effective person, searching for that which would give me security in knowing that I am giving my life as it is today the best that I can give it. I enjoy taking time out of my day to learn and grow with no inhibitions and even if I do have them, I am continuing the process in order to know that I have fulfilled that which I have purposed to do.
In our "Leadership Academy" we teach from the 7 Habits, what I am enjoying is learning about the habits, as well, putting myself in subjection to following the habits like I talk to the students about. We met on Thursday and we talked about the first habit, being proactive, the teen version and what being proactive means verses being reactive and I must say that I have to work on this daily, most days I fall short of the goal of being a proactive highly effective person, however; I want to be that person. A woman with vision and purpose.
I like the energy that I get from the students, they keep me grounded and inspire me to be better and do more, as much as they think that I push them to be the best, to do more, to be better. They equally do that for me. I can't say something with my mouth and not have my actions and deeds produce what I am saying.
The more I study these habits, the more I want to walk, exercise, work out and be healthy. I am finding peace, comfort and solace on this journey thanking God daily for the air I breathe.....
I plan on finding the most exciting places to walk and sharing pictures as soon as I know how to post all of those things I will share them.
I am on my way out the door to enjoy the wonderful day that awaits me outside. I can hear the birds singing to me, it's like music to my ears. I love it!!
"We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, then, is not an act, but a habit" ~ By Aristotle
"I know of no more encouraging fact than the unquestionable ability of man to elevate his life by conscious endeavor." ~ By Henry David Thoreau
"What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us."
~ By Oliver Wendell Holmes
I've been reading about the 7 Habits of Highly Effective People and I see how in some areas I'm effective and in others I am not. I am a work in progress and I welcome progression in my life. What it tells me is that I don't have it all figured out and I embrace the journey of discovery. I am enjoying my life today, the adventures I find myself on in trying to become a highly effective person, searching for that which would give me security in knowing that I am giving my life as it is today the best that I can give it. I enjoy taking time out of my day to learn and grow with no inhibitions and even if I do have them, I am continuing the process in order to know that I have fulfilled that which I have purposed to do.
In our "Leadership Academy" we teach from the 7 Habits, what I am enjoying is learning about the habits, as well, putting myself in subjection to following the habits like I talk to the students about. We met on Thursday and we talked about the first habit, being proactive, the teen version and what being proactive means verses being reactive and I must say that I have to work on this daily, most days I fall short of the goal of being a proactive highly effective person, however; I want to be that person. A woman with vision and purpose.
I like the energy that I get from the students, they keep me grounded and inspire me to be better and do more, as much as they think that I push them to be the best, to do more, to be better. They equally do that for me. I can't say something with my mouth and not have my actions and deeds produce what I am saying.
The more I study these habits, the more I want to walk, exercise, work out and be healthy. I am finding peace, comfort and solace on this journey thanking God daily for the air I breathe.....
I plan on finding the most exciting places to walk and sharing pictures as soon as I know how to post all of those things I will share them.
I am on my way out the door to enjoy the wonderful day that awaits me outside. I can hear the birds singing to me, it's like music to my ears. I love it!!
"We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, then, is not an act, but a habit" ~ By Aristotle
"I know of no more encouraging fact than the unquestionable ability of man to elevate his life by conscious endeavor." ~ By Henry David Thoreau
"What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us."
~ By Oliver Wendell Holmes
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
"My Dearest Lolita!!"
February 22, 2012......
Hey Baby Girl, you did it!!......I just want to say before I put my head on the pillow, that I didn't just get out and walk, I also went to the gym and hit the weights!! The feelings I have right now are amazing!! I am proud of myself.
Good Night!!
Blessings,
LaLaLolita
"Life loves the liver of it. Life loves to be taken by the lapel and told: I'm with you, kid. Let's go."
~ By Melvin Chapman
Hey Baby Girl, you did it!!......I just want to say before I put my head on the pillow, that I didn't just get out and walk, I also went to the gym and hit the weights!! The feelings I have right now are amazing!! I am proud of myself.
Good Night!!
Blessings,
LaLaLolita
"Life loves the liver of it. Life loves to be taken by the lapel and told: I'm with you, kid. Let's go."
~ By Melvin Chapman
"My Word Is Bond!!"
February 21, 2012.......
Okay, I have a confession to make, I said from day one that I would keep it real and stay true to myself, truth is by not walking lately, I haven't been true to myself. Yeah, I may say that my letting it be known that I haven't been walking is keeping it real and staying true to myself but, actually it's not. There's nothing real about me not making the time to take care of myself! There's nothing true about me not taking time out of my so called busy day to walk for my life, my health, my spirit, my soul, my family and yes, even my friends........
It hit me today, I gave my word to myself. I said to "Lolita" that she was important, worthy, beautiful and strong. I told myself that I was a "Walking Woman That Wins!!" If I don't make time to walk, I don't win, it's just as simple as that. Truth is, there isn't anything more important than that because if I don't adhere to the inner voice inside of me, the one that is telling me to take care of myself, there will be consequences and those consequences could be dire, life threatening, take me off the face of this earth consequences. Or to the contrary, leave me with some sort of debilitating disease or sickness that may as well take me off the face of this earth because my wings will be clipped, I couldn't fly. I'm too musch of a free spirit. I was born to be an eagle, and for too long I didn't know it. Far too long I've lived the life of a pigeon, pecking around here, pecking around there, always feeling like something just wasn't quite right, not being able to put my fingers on it.
I can say this, that I have been keeping my ear to ground (so to speak). I've been listening to the sound of my spirit, recognizing it when it speaks, sometimes I hear it when I observe others and what they may go through or what they may say. For example, I was watching the biggest loser last night and one of the contestants wrote in her journal back in 2010 about how she didn't like herself. She had written how she felt unworthy and that she could not understand why she had friends in the first place. Then she was asked to speak of what she thinks of herself now, after 2 months of losing over 60 pounds, the young lady still struggled with loving herself enough to give herself a compliment. It made me think of my own life, my own struggles and yes, even my own victories and yet, I too find it difficult to say well done Lolita. I have struggled with the question, "Why am I not worthy of the best health? The strongest body? What is holding me back? Why would I choose to eat the cake verses the vegetables? I don't have all the answers today. I may never........However, I must give it a try. Last nights show was about no more excuses. I was full of excuses. I am full of excuses. There is not one reason why I can't find an hour or two to do Lolita!!
I have also thought a lot about Whitney Houston and how we all have looked at her life and said that is was short lived, a tragedy, how could this have happened? Why did she do what she did? Some of us have even thought of how we may have been able to help her. Only if she would of turned around and went the other way 5 months ago and stayed pointed in the other direction after she had gotten out of rehab then this wouldn't have happened. I don't know. I can't say. What I will say is this, Whitney left all of us with so much, we all talk about the gift of her voice, and I would be the first to say that I am no different than anyone else, I loved to sing me some Whitney Houston songs. Whitney was my bff in my head. What I will remember most about Whitney is the lessons I am learning in her passing. I can see that her inner voice spoke to her back in May when she went to rehab, she knew deep inside that she needed to turn her life around. Her spirit said for her to go the other way or she wouldn't have checked in to rehab in the first place. Tomorrow isn't promised to any of us. I don't have answers for all the rest, nor am I going to sit around and try to figure it out. I am going to take my gift that she gave me and open it and say "Thank You Whitney!!"
When our spirit man or woman speaks, we better listen.........
Lolita's spirit woman is saying that if I get out and walk, I will win!! Amen!!.........
I want to share the lyrics of the song that the Winans sang at Whitney's funeral from the song:
"Tomorrow!"
Jesus said
"Here I stand, won't you please let me in?"
And you said
"I will tomorrow"
Jesus said
"I am he, who supplies all you needs"
And you said
"I know, but tomorrow, ooh, tomorrow, I'll give my life tomorrow,
I thought about today, but it's so much easier to say"
Tomorrow, who promised you tomorrow,
better choose the Lord today, for tomorrow very well might be too late.
Jesus said
"Here I stand, won't you please take my hand?"
And you said
"I will tomorrow"
Jesus said
"I am he who supplies all your needs"
And you said
"I know, but tomorrow, ooh, tomorrow, I'll give my life
tomorrow, I thought about today, but it's so much easier to say"
Tomorrow, who promised you tomorrow,
better choose the Lord today, for tomorrow very well might be too late.
And who said tomorrow would ever come for you,
still you laugh and play and continue on to say "tomorrow"
forget about tomorrow, won't you give
your life today oohh,
please don't just turn and walk away
tomorrow, tomorrow?????
Don't let this moment slip away
your tomorrow could very well begin today!!!
With a resounding Yes, Lord.......I will today!!
In adversity, look for the benefit that can come out of it. Even bad experiences offer benefits, but you have to look for them. ~ By Eric V. Copage
In every crisis, there is a message. Crises are nature's way of forcing change~breaking down old structures, shaking loose those negative habits so that something new and better can take their place. ~ By Susan Taylor
Words are nothing but words; power lies in deeds. Be a man (woman) of action.
~ By Mamado Kouyate
With Love,
LaLaLolita!!
Okay, I have a confession to make, I said from day one that I would keep it real and stay true to myself, truth is by not walking lately, I haven't been true to myself. Yeah, I may say that my letting it be known that I haven't been walking is keeping it real and staying true to myself but, actually it's not. There's nothing real about me not making the time to take care of myself! There's nothing true about me not taking time out of my so called busy day to walk for my life, my health, my spirit, my soul, my family and yes, even my friends........
It hit me today, I gave my word to myself. I said to "Lolita" that she was important, worthy, beautiful and strong. I told myself that I was a "Walking Woman That Wins!!" If I don't make time to walk, I don't win, it's just as simple as that. Truth is, there isn't anything more important than that because if I don't adhere to the inner voice inside of me, the one that is telling me to take care of myself, there will be consequences and those consequences could be dire, life threatening, take me off the face of this earth consequences. Or to the contrary, leave me with some sort of debilitating disease or sickness that may as well take me off the face of this earth because my wings will be clipped, I couldn't fly. I'm too musch of a free spirit. I was born to be an eagle, and for too long I didn't know it. Far too long I've lived the life of a pigeon, pecking around here, pecking around there, always feeling like something just wasn't quite right, not being able to put my fingers on it.
I can say this, that I have been keeping my ear to ground (so to speak). I've been listening to the sound of my spirit, recognizing it when it speaks, sometimes I hear it when I observe others and what they may go through or what they may say. For example, I was watching the biggest loser last night and one of the contestants wrote in her journal back in 2010 about how she didn't like herself. She had written how she felt unworthy and that she could not understand why she had friends in the first place. Then she was asked to speak of what she thinks of herself now, after 2 months of losing over 60 pounds, the young lady still struggled with loving herself enough to give herself a compliment. It made me think of my own life, my own struggles and yes, even my own victories and yet, I too find it difficult to say well done Lolita. I have struggled with the question, "Why am I not worthy of the best health? The strongest body? What is holding me back? Why would I choose to eat the cake verses the vegetables? I don't have all the answers today. I may never........However, I must give it a try. Last nights show was about no more excuses. I was full of excuses. I am full of excuses. There is not one reason why I can't find an hour or two to do Lolita!!
I have also thought a lot about Whitney Houston and how we all have looked at her life and said that is was short lived, a tragedy, how could this have happened? Why did she do what she did? Some of us have even thought of how we may have been able to help her. Only if she would of turned around and went the other way 5 months ago and stayed pointed in the other direction after she had gotten out of rehab then this wouldn't have happened. I don't know. I can't say. What I will say is this, Whitney left all of us with so much, we all talk about the gift of her voice, and I would be the first to say that I am no different than anyone else, I loved to sing me some Whitney Houston songs. Whitney was my bff in my head. What I will remember most about Whitney is the lessons I am learning in her passing. I can see that her inner voice spoke to her back in May when she went to rehab, she knew deep inside that she needed to turn her life around. Her spirit said for her to go the other way or she wouldn't have checked in to rehab in the first place. Tomorrow isn't promised to any of us. I don't have answers for all the rest, nor am I going to sit around and try to figure it out. I am going to take my gift that she gave me and open it and say "Thank You Whitney!!"
When our spirit man or woman speaks, we better listen.........
Lolita's spirit woman is saying that if I get out and walk, I will win!! Amen!!.........
I want to share the lyrics of the song that the Winans sang at Whitney's funeral from the song:
"Tomorrow!"
Jesus said
"Here I stand, won't you please let me in?"
And you said
"I will tomorrow"
Jesus said
"I am he, who supplies all you needs"
And you said
"I know, but tomorrow, ooh, tomorrow, I'll give my life tomorrow,
I thought about today, but it's so much easier to say"
Tomorrow, who promised you tomorrow,
better choose the Lord today, for tomorrow very well might be too late.
Jesus said
"Here I stand, won't you please take my hand?"
And you said
"I will tomorrow"
Jesus said
"I am he who supplies all your needs"
And you said
"I know, but tomorrow, ooh, tomorrow, I'll give my life
tomorrow, I thought about today, but it's so much easier to say"
Tomorrow, who promised you tomorrow,
better choose the Lord today, for tomorrow very well might be too late.
And who said tomorrow would ever come for you,
still you laugh and play and continue on to say "tomorrow"
forget about tomorrow, won't you give
your life today oohh,
please don't just turn and walk away
tomorrow, tomorrow?????
Don't let this moment slip away
your tomorrow could very well begin today!!!
With a resounding Yes, Lord.......I will today!!
In adversity, look for the benefit that can come out of it. Even bad experiences offer benefits, but you have to look for them. ~ By Eric V. Copage
In every crisis, there is a message. Crises are nature's way of forcing change~breaking down old structures, shaking loose those negative habits so that something new and better can take their place. ~ By Susan Taylor
Words are nothing but words; power lies in deeds. Be a man (woman) of action.
~ By Mamado Kouyate
With Love,
LaLaLolita!!
Monday, February 20, 2012
"Have No Fear!!"
February 19, 2012........
The Touch of The Hands
The touch of the hands
From the man
That nursed the wound
Of my heart
That bruised my body
Removed my breast
First the left
Then the right
The touch of love
That let me know
The scar he touches
In my soul
From the hands
Of the man
Has saved my life
With love forever
To his wife
The touch of the hands
From the man
So brand new
Just like the scar
Touched my heart
~ By Lolita Jackson January 2011
"FEAR"
This is what I feared the most
Coming back
To live and post
Up
In this place
This space where
Darkness looms
To consume
My very soul
To have me cold
6 feet under
No wonder
Tried to run
Walk fast
Walk long
Singing my song
Today
Another day
To be away
From doom and gloom
Dichotomy
Death tries to take you
While life awaits you
If you answer
The call
Don't stall
Wake up
Sleepy head
Get up
Out the bed
You can do it
I said
To myself
Today
As I lie here
And pray you say
Dear God
Help me
From the demons inside
Fighting my stride
As I walk
Along your side
Your angels know
Thank you Lord
Please keep my soul.....
~By Lolita Jackson September 7, 2011
The touch of the hands
From the man
That nursed the wound
Of my heart
That bruised my body
Removed my breast
First the left
Then the right
The touch of love
That let me know
The scar he touches
In my soul
From the hands
Of the man
Has saved my life
With love forever
To his wife
The touch of the hands
From the man
So brand new
Just like the scar
Touched my heart
~ By Lolita Jackson January 2011
Dreams Delayed Not Denied
He's tired I see
Wired for me
Life that he be
Wanting for
A distant shore
Beyond the horizon
He can't imagine
His dream be gone
Melodic no song
He not singin
Constant ringin
His head be hurtin
Not flirtin with the dream devils
So mean
Take away the stray
Kids
Won't come out n play
No daddy today
Grandpa gone
Not singin their song
How could this be
No melody
For
This family
Can't take this no more
It's him I adore
He'll hate me for sure
His life
Not livin
Constantly givin
Not reapin
Just seepin
Ripped at the seams
This man, his dreams,
For his family
~ By Lolita Jackson September 8, 2011
Good Morning/Good Night
Good Night Baby Boy
Good Night Baby Girl
Good Night Daddy
Good Night Mommy
Good Morning Boo
Good Morning To You Too.........
All These Words Sound So Good
Something Kind of Special
From Us Two In Da Hood!!
~ By Lolita Jackson
The very fact that I woke up this morning with air to breathe makes today a wonderful day. I love each and every day that God has blessed me with. My soul yearns to to love and show love. Whenever something happens that causes discord it literally grieves my spirit. I feel a churning in my stomach. I watched Whitney's funeral on television yesterday morning and cried for two hours. It just let me know that we must take every moment that we have and treat like it's our last. Smell the flowers while you can. Feel the fresh air while you can. Enjoy the beautiful view outside your window while you can. If you don't have a beautiful view, walk to one. Call someone that you haven't talked to in a long time and tell them that you love them. Find someone that may need you and do something for them. Take a little time in your busy day and give encouragement to someone who has lost their way.....(Diana Ross) We can change things if we start giving, reach out and touch someone......
The chemist who can extract from his heart's elements compassion, respect, longing, patience, regret, surprise, and forgiveness and compound them into one can create that atom which is called love...... ~ By Kahlil Gibran
Imagine what a harmonious world it could be if every single person, both young and old, shared a little of what he is good at doing. ~ By Quincy Jones
Nobody can dim the light which shines from within.... ~ By Maya Angelou
Sunday, February 19, 2012
"Listen......"N
February 18, 2012........
I hear you........There's an inner voice inside me that's screaming loudly to make changes to my health. I was prompted to change by a small inner voice, you know a whisper, that was letting me know "Lolita, baby girl you need to get out and start walking, eating right, lose some weight, and start on that journey to better health." I set out at the beginning of the new year with this grandiose plan of action to implement it, knowing it wasn't going to be easy. Lately, I hear the voice shouting at me, telling me to turn this ship around now.
I will admit that I am struggling with eating right and just getting out the door to walk. I am going to reveal something that will embarrass the living crap out of me, but I also said that I will keep it real.
Okay, so here it goes.......I had my husband take the dining room table down and remove it out of the house along with the chairs that goes with it, thinking that if he does that it would force me to use the weight equipment that I had out on the patio once he set it up in the house. Now get this, I have a professional elyptical machine downstairs, a professional weight bench with an olympic size barbell and weights that go on it, in addition to that I have a beautiful stationary bike that looks like one of those spinner bikes with the handle bars that move back and fourth as nice cool air blows toward you, it doesn't get any better than that. Well, wait.....it does; I also have dumb bells in every color, yoga mats, yoga dvd"s, work out dvd's, bands, you name it, I have it. There's one thing missing, guess what it is?
I don't know!!!!! WHAT IS MISSING? If I knew the answer to that question, I would be writing a different story tonight. I am starting to feel these aches and pains in my knees, my body is doing funny things on the inside and I am completely sure that it's related to excess weight, lack of exercise and overall poor health.
My prayer is that God will give me the strength to be successful at carrying out the goal of being a walking woman that wins!!!...........
I know God is able!! So am I!!!
I hear you........There's an inner voice inside me that's screaming loudly to make changes to my health. I was prompted to change by a small inner voice, you know a whisper, that was letting me know "Lolita, baby girl you need to get out and start walking, eating right, lose some weight, and start on that journey to better health." I set out at the beginning of the new year with this grandiose plan of action to implement it, knowing it wasn't going to be easy. Lately, I hear the voice shouting at me, telling me to turn this ship around now.
I will admit that I am struggling with eating right and just getting out the door to walk. I am going to reveal something that will embarrass the living crap out of me, but I also said that I will keep it real.
Okay, so here it goes.......I had my husband take the dining room table down and remove it out of the house along with the chairs that goes with it, thinking that if he does that it would force me to use the weight equipment that I had out on the patio once he set it up in the house. Now get this, I have a professional elyptical machine downstairs, a professional weight bench with an olympic size barbell and weights that go on it, in addition to that I have a beautiful stationary bike that looks like one of those spinner bikes with the handle bars that move back and fourth as nice cool air blows toward you, it doesn't get any better than that. Well, wait.....it does; I also have dumb bells in every color, yoga mats, yoga dvd"s, work out dvd's, bands, you name it, I have it. There's one thing missing, guess what it is?
I don't know!!!!! WHAT IS MISSING? If I knew the answer to that question, I would be writing a different story tonight. I am starting to feel these aches and pains in my knees, my body is doing funny things on the inside and I am completely sure that it's related to excess weight, lack of exercise and overall poor health.
My prayer is that God will give me the strength to be successful at carrying out the goal of being a walking woman that wins!!!...........
I know God is able!! So am I!!!
Crying Soul
My soul cries
Tears
Years
Denied of Love
Dried
Like Mud
Hard
Clay Cracked
Heart Broke
Choked back the fear
To live a life
With cheer
No smile
Like veneers
Wonder why
I should try
Life stole
My soul
When I was just 4 years old!!!!
~~By Lolita Jackson 9/8/2011
Sexxxy To Boot
I'm Sexxxy
I'm Cute
Cuddly to boot
So fine
As wine
Spend your last dime
I love flowers
They have powers
To heal the soul
Put smiles on faces
They show up
Unique places
Fragrant & Sweet
Bouquet
Stands tall
Wide & Blossomed
Awesome!!
~By Lolita Jackson April 2011
Achieving the goal isn't half as important as setting it.... By Anthony Robbins
Strive for the greatest possible harmony and compassion in your business and in your life...............By Oprah Winfrey
Failure is a word I don't accept....... ~ By John H. Johnson
Saturday, February 18, 2012
"Diamond In The Rough!!"
February 17, 2012........ Epiphany
Had an Epiphany
Felt you with Tiffany
Ran to the door
See how I scored
Wait to see
What you have for me
Box is locked
Key won't open
Sad to say
Tiffany an illusion
Stop the confusion
No guest appearance
Stage was set
Put to the test
"F" you get...........
~~By Lolita Jackson 8/8/2011
So What You Want Me....
You say you want me
I believe you, I do
When I get sick
Where are you?
You say you love me,
I believe you, I do
Where are you
When the baby needs
A new pair of shoes?
You say you love me
I believe you, I do
What about your wife?
Tonight
We enter in, to paradise
You say you love me
I believe you, I do
Why do you want to meet me
In a room?
You say you love me
I believe you, I do
It's just that, Loving you back.......Makes Me A Fool!!!!
~~By Lolita Jackson 9/10/2011
Love Me Slow.....
You Love Me Slow
You Love Me Long
You Stroke Me Good
To Our Favorite Song......
You Kiss My Lips
Both High & Low
I twist & Turn
With Every Moan
Of A Love So Slow
So Good, So Long
That Never Stops
To Our Favorite Song.......
~~By Lolita Jackson July 27, 2011
Just Say It!!
I want to hear those words
You'll never say,
It's O.K.
I know you never will
To hear you say those words
Would give me such a thrill
Like the kite I'll fly
No limit in the sky
Sand in my toes
On the beach I run
The sound of the ocean
Waves pounding my heart
Early morning sun
Maybe today,
He'll say, just for fun
I wait
I pray
To hear
him say
The words O.K.
Under the gun
I hint
Around
For
The Sound
Like an echo I hear
So big, no voice
His tongue
Is young
Don't understand
The words
I Love You
Never came
From the man
Who
Has my hand........
~~By Lolita Jackson March 3, 2011
I am finding that being a walking woman that wins has it's ups and downs. Some days the best therapy for me is to write, not just walk, even though honestly I haven't walked in a long time. It's been so long now that I can't count the days. I again have let everything and everybody else come before Lolita. I will not give up on me. I made a promise to me and I am going to do me. Loving Lolita has been the hardest thing in my life to do. I pray that I will find from within that which I need to put Lolita first because I'm afraid that if I don't, well, it won't be good that's just the bottom line.
"If you were going to die soon and had only one phone call you could make, who would you call and what would you say?" "And why are you waiting?" ~~By Stephen Levine
I would call Lolita Jackson and tell her "You can do it!!" "I believe in you!!"
"Whether you think you can, or think you can't, you're right!" ~~ By Henry Ford
Friday, February 17, 2012
"The Greatest Love of All"
February 16, 2012.......
Whitney sang a line from one of her songs, that learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all. That's something that we all must come to grips with in our lives, coming to that place in life where we learn to love ourselves regardless of what is being said about us, or what is thought about us. It is also something that is challenging to teach. I find that being a parent, leader, role model, and advisor is difficult when faced with the sometimes daunting task of trying to show others the importance of loving yourself.
Oliver Wendell Holmes once attended a meeting in which he was the shortest man present. "Dr. Holmes," quipped a friend, "I should think you'd feel rather small among us big fellows." "I do," retorted Holmes, "I feel like a dime among a lot of pennies."
And now here is my secret, a very simple secret; it is only with the heart that one can see rightly, what is essential is invisible to the eye. ~~ By Antoine de Saint~Exupery
Whitney sang a line from one of her songs, that learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all. That's something that we all must come to grips with in our lives, coming to that place in life where we learn to love ourselves regardless of what is being said about us, or what is thought about us. It is also something that is challenging to teach. I find that being a parent, leader, role model, and advisor is difficult when faced with the sometimes daunting task of trying to show others the importance of loving yourself.
Oliver Wendell Holmes once attended a meeting in which he was the shortest man present. "Dr. Holmes," quipped a friend, "I should think you'd feel rather small among us big fellows." "I do," retorted Holmes, "I feel like a dime among a lot of pennies."
And now here is my secret, a very simple secret; it is only with the heart that one can see rightly, what is essential is invisible to the eye. ~~ By Antoine de Saint~Exupery
"Children Learn What They Live"
If children live with criticism,
they learn to condemn.
If children live with hostility,
they learn to fight.
If children live with fear,
they learn to be apprehensive.
If children live with pity,
they learn to feel sorry for themselves.
If children live with ridicule,
they learn to be shy.
If children live with jealousy,
they learn what envy is.
If children live with shame,
they learn to feel guilty.
If children live with tolerance,
they learn to be patient.
If children live with encouragement,
they learn to be confident.
If children live with praise,
they learn to appreciate.
If children live with approval,
they learn to like themselves.
If children live with acceptance,
they learn to find love in the world.
If children live with recognition,
they learn to have a goal.
If children live with sharing,
they learn to be generous.
If children live with honesty and fairness,
they learn what truth and justice are.
If children live with security,
they learn to have faith in themselves
and in those around them.
If children live with friendliness,
they learn that the world is a nice
place in which to live.
If children live wit serenity,
they learn to have peace of mind.
With what are your children living?
~~By Dorothy L. Nolte
Thursday, February 16, 2012
"Ring of Life!"
February 15, 2012........
There comes a time in our lives that we must believe in ourselves enough to stay in the ring of life and fight no matter what. If we have dreams we've got to reach within and hold on like super glue stuck to your fingers. If you fall you have to get back up, if the punches that are being thrown at you hit you hard enough to knock you out. Keep your gloves on and fight til the end my friend....
I made a promise to myself at the beginning of the year that I was going to be a walking woman that wins, I am keeping that promise even when the unexpected happens that is enough to literally take my breath away for a couple of days, like an unexpected death, I have had to find a way to tap into the inner sanctum of my soul, my spirit and say yes even though I don't feel like it.
The death of Whitney Houston hit me hard for a lot of reasons. I know that I didn't know her personally, I didn't have to. I am still taking it hard, that being said, I am staying in this ring of life, the one I've committed to, the ring that has my healthy body and future in it.
I want to let you know that there will be days that you just don't want to do anything and will want to be left alone, that's okay. Just keep your eyes on the prize......
I want to share a poem that I wrote called "Lectricity"
"Lectricity, unplugged from me, My energy, That I need, For me to breathe, For me to eat, For me to sleep, My battery, Lectricity, My source of course, Hit deplete, Erased the space, That I placed, Inside my heart, I held so near, And, Dear to me, Lectricity, Ignited me, Fan the spark, Of the flame, That was lain, Down inside, Lost the pride, In my eyes, Lectricity, Saw in me, Remember when, Way back then, Well, Alright, Another night, To reminisce, Of love legit, With every breath, Omnipotent, Your presence, Represent, Love foretold, Years ago, Lectricity, Need you to see, The light that shines, When I think you're mine, You stop the time, On a dime, Our love like wine, So fine, Suspended in time, Oh my, I, Cry for you, To be my boo, Constant Flow, My energy, That I need, Lover's creed, Our dirty deed's, Screams Passionately!, Of Ecstasy, Lectricity, I paid the bill, In Full Today, To Hear You Say, Out Loud My Name, Love Untamed, Lectricity!!"
~~By Lolita Jackson 9/10/11
There comes a time in our lives that we must believe in ourselves enough to stay in the ring of life and fight no matter what. If we have dreams we've got to reach within and hold on like super glue stuck to your fingers. If you fall you have to get back up, if the punches that are being thrown at you hit you hard enough to knock you out. Keep your gloves on and fight til the end my friend....
I made a promise to myself at the beginning of the year that I was going to be a walking woman that wins, I am keeping that promise even when the unexpected happens that is enough to literally take my breath away for a couple of days, like an unexpected death, I have had to find a way to tap into the inner sanctum of my soul, my spirit and say yes even though I don't feel like it.
The death of Whitney Houston hit me hard for a lot of reasons. I know that I didn't know her personally, I didn't have to. I am still taking it hard, that being said, I am staying in this ring of life, the one I've committed to, the ring that has my healthy body and future in it.
I want to let you know that there will be days that you just don't want to do anything and will want to be left alone, that's okay. Just keep your eyes on the prize......
I want to share a poem that I wrote called "Lectricity"
"Lectricity, unplugged from me, My energy, That I need, For me to breathe, For me to eat, For me to sleep, My battery, Lectricity, My source of course, Hit deplete, Erased the space, That I placed, Inside my heart, I held so near, And, Dear to me, Lectricity, Ignited me, Fan the spark, Of the flame, That was lain, Down inside, Lost the pride, In my eyes, Lectricity, Saw in me, Remember when, Way back then, Well, Alright, Another night, To reminisce, Of love legit, With every breath, Omnipotent, Your presence, Represent, Love foretold, Years ago, Lectricity, Need you to see, The light that shines, When I think you're mine, You stop the time, On a dime, Our love like wine, So fine, Suspended in time, Oh my, I, Cry for you, To be my boo, Constant Flow, My energy, That I need, Lover's creed, Our dirty deed's, Screams Passionately!, Of Ecstasy, Lectricity, I paid the bill, In Full Today, To Hear You Say, Out Loud My Name, Love Untamed, Lectricity!!"
~~By Lolita Jackson 9/10/11
Sunday, February 12, 2012
"Abandonment!!"
February 12, 2012........
Abandonment
I don't do
Rejection well
Can't you tell
These feelings
of
Abandonment
To childhood
I was sent
Remember
My life
Living hell
To not know
What to do
What to say
How to live
I
Give, give, give
People
Take, take, take
Dawned on me
Before a victim
I become
Tears on the
Run, run, run
Em-pow-er-ment
Is my reward
Take charge of
Being good
Constant flow
Living water
Rivers deep
My love
To be reaped
Bottomless well
I can tell
Recognize
This is a gift
I must shift
To whom it's meant
Re~ci~pient
My love so deep
It's me
I see
I get it now
From a child
To love yourself
It's me
I see
I get it now
Always told
Love thy neighbor
As ourselves
No self worth
Re~ci~pient
Of my own
Love so rich
Vi~ber~ant
Today
I'll say, to myself
So bold
I Miss You Boo
Good Morning Beautiful!!
Knock, Knock
My Love
Tick Tock
The Clock
Wake up
Sleepy head
Get out of bed
Recognize
Love awaits
Your arrival
Thanking God
My survival
Abra-ca-dabra,
Voila'
My Pet
Never again
To sweat
Rejection from
Bottomless pit....
Of
Abandonment!!!!!!
~~By Lolita Jackson 9/14/11
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