April 8, 2012......
Happy Easter Everyone!! Today was absolutely beautiful!!! I just absolutely Love Life, I love being alive, living the best life that I can live, I love putting smiles of people's faces and I Love the skin I'm in. Everyday I wake up and I literally grab the sheets to see if I am here and I Thank God that I made it to be able to take another breath, it's a miracle that I don't take for granted. When I lay my head down at night most of the time I am exhausted because I push myself til I am running on fumes, wanting to make sure that I have done the best I can with the day that God has blessed me with.
I did something today that I have never done before, I went to the University of Washington and walked around and enjoyed the cherry blossom trees, they are stunningly beautiful! My husband has been trying to get me to go for years and every year I have one excuse or another and after going today I couldn't believe that me, Miss Flower Lady just now got up off of my butt and went, but I am so glad that I did. You should of seen us, we were walking around that campus like teenagers, taking pictures, climbing trees, Yes I Said It, Climbing Trees, (Okay maybe not that high) but we did take pictures in trees, on the ground in the grass, we had so much fun, it was amazing, and I was able to get my walk in without really putting any thought to it. That's what I am enjoying about my walking, I can get out and walk with purpose and before you know it I have put in a full exercise regimen without thinking about it.
I was talking to a friend of mine today and we were talking about virtuous women and that reminded me of a passage from the bible that I like. I remember when I first gave my life to Christ, I would read that scripture and would think about how badly I wanted to be a virtuous woman. I wanted to be that Lady in the scriptures, she sounded so amazing.....I equated this woman with perfection, she was something to strive for, I imagined her husband having eyes just for her, she seemed like the kind of woman that people looked up to, little kids liked her, especially little girls they adored her, she was respected in the community by everyone this woman was the woman to be. I have since not given the virtuous woman much thought until today, when my girlfriend brought up the subject of a virtuous woman, I began to think about where I've been in my life, where I am, and where I would like to go, and just how close am I to being that virtuous woman that is described in the bible?
Well, let's just say this woman sounds like the epitome of perfection, which I am a heck of a long way from, yet I can say this, I do put in the effort, yes I have a long way to go, and I know that no one is perfect, not by a long shot but it doesn't hurt to try and be the best woman or man that you can be and to me that is virtuous!!
Virtuous 1. conforming to moral and ethical principles; morally excellent; upright.
I used to want the words "she tried" on my tombstone. Now I want the words "She did it!"
~By Katherine Mary Dunham
Love Always,
LaLaLolita
Monday, April 9, 2012
Saturday, April 7, 2012
"Bottom Line!!"
April 6, 2012......
Do you have a bottom line? Is there a line, boundaries in your life that cannot/should not be crossed? The question is have you made that bottom line clear? I know that must not be the case for me, I must not be clear enough about my bottom line because daily I find myself continually stating that I have a bottom line, saying hey you're going too far, stop and don't go there, it's like Tyrese says, "this is my bottom line, do not cross it." Tyrese also says that if you accept disrespect, then it is expected that you will be disrespected.
In order to take care of your health and put yourself first in your daily life and on your list of daily things to do, you may find yourself letting the people around you know that the things that they used to do by way of putting demands on your time are no longer acceptable and that they will also have to be comfortable hearing the word NO from you. That's not an easy task, doing so may require you to set boundaries if you haven't done that before and making it clear what your bottom line is, that is key.......That way you won't find yourself arguing and having any misunderstanding. I am finding for myself that I have to be clear, Lolita's health comes first, point blank period!!
"To laugh often and much;
to win the respect of intelligent people
and affection of children; to earn the
appreciation of honest critics and endure
the betrayal of false friends;
to appreciate beauty, to find the best in others;
to leave the world a bit better, whether by a
healthy child, a garden patch or a
redeemed social condition; to know even
one life has breathed easier because you
have lived. This is to have succeeded."
~By Ralph Waldo Emerson
LaLaLolita
Do you have a bottom line? Is there a line, boundaries in your life that cannot/should not be crossed? The question is have you made that bottom line clear? I know that must not be the case for me, I must not be clear enough about my bottom line because daily I find myself continually stating that I have a bottom line, saying hey you're going too far, stop and don't go there, it's like Tyrese says, "this is my bottom line, do not cross it." Tyrese also says that if you accept disrespect, then it is expected that you will be disrespected.
In order to take care of your health and put yourself first in your daily life and on your list of daily things to do, you may find yourself letting the people around you know that the things that they used to do by way of putting demands on your time are no longer acceptable and that they will also have to be comfortable hearing the word NO from you. That's not an easy task, doing so may require you to set boundaries if you haven't done that before and making it clear what your bottom line is, that is key.......That way you won't find yourself arguing and having any misunderstanding. I am finding for myself that I have to be clear, Lolita's health comes first, point blank period!!
"To laugh often and much;
to win the respect of intelligent people
and affection of children; to earn the
appreciation of honest critics and endure
the betrayal of false friends;
to appreciate beauty, to find the best in others;
to leave the world a bit better, whether by a
healthy child, a garden patch or a
redeemed social condition; to know even
one life has breathed easier because you
have lived. This is to have succeeded."
~By Ralph Waldo Emerson
LaLaLolita
Friday, April 6, 2012
"Now Power!"
"April 5, 2012....."
Today I brought back out a book that I have read a couple of times called "The Power of Now." What I like about the book is that the author does a good job of having the reader get in touch with his/her inner woman or man in regards to excuses and the past. The author "Eckhart Tolle" suggests that our minds do a great job analytically creating a false ego that finds comfort in pain and suffering. I remember when I first read the book I was so uncomfortable because he dared to question religion as I knew it, imparting uncomplicated clarity of ancient spiritual masters with a simple yet profound message that radically changed my view with a heightened awareness spiritually that helped to connect me with the indestructible essence of my inner being, my soul woman.
I remember first reading about the pain body that is connected with my past and how the ego identifies unconsciously with pain and how pain can accumulate and is a negative energy field that will occupy our mind and body because it wants to survive like any other entity in existence that wants to rise up and take you over, pain wants to become us, pain needs it's food from me and it will feed and resonate on any experience that will give it energy in any form; anger, destructiveness, hatred, grief, emotional drama,violence and yes even illness.
I pulled my book out again today because I use that book as a tool, a source of reference, a reminder of what I'm dealing with when I find myself being bogged down with stuff trying to compile upon me, one thing after another, after another. I use the Power of Now to identify the pain so that I can expose it for what it is and not give my pain any further pain to feed upon. I find it to be a fascinating process because once the source is identified it makes the transition a lot smoother, my pain-body has had a lot of hurt on so many levels that I can't begin to count nor identify until situations arise and then I can say if a particular pain body is familiar or not because, like I said, some pain will remain dormant until it comes across a negative energy field that it can align itself with and then try to feed upon it and grow in your life.
It's moments like these that I embrace fully to allow for healing and transformation to occur. I call it my 15 minute rule, my knowing minutes. I give a situation 15 minutes, to vent it, process it, sit on it, think about it, then I move on to allow a soulution.
If ever there was a time to be a "Walking Woman That Wins" it's now......Walking allows me to take deep breaths, in and out while enjoying the crisp, fresh outdoor weather. I needed that today. I got out into the sunshine and started walking, it felt delicious.
I watched a new reality tv show today about Mary Mary and I heard a little of their song "Walking" I want to share the lyrics of that song with you.
"Walking"
"Tell me what you see when I pass by
A shadow, a cloud, or a line in the sky
Am I getting you wrong or am I getting you right
Well, all I can take is one,
One step at a time
Look at me, I'm trying
Everyday, I fall down
I make mistakes
Get back up
Try again
Next time that you see me
I'm walking, I'm walking, I'm walking
Some people say walking takes too long
But I say with walking you can't go wrong
Why should you rush your way through life
You won't get very far, running all the time
I'm walking, I'm walking, I'm walking
What does my life say about me
Can anyone see
Does it show I rock the greatest
I cant't get back the time I spent
Use the rest of it
To show all the world how I made it
I'm walking, I'm walking, I'm walking!!"
In every crisis, there is a message. Crises are nature's way of forcing change-breaking down old structures, shaking loose those negative habits so that something new and better can take their place. ~By Susan Taylor
"I can't believe my good fortune, and I am just so grateful, to be a black woman. A Black American woman. I would be so jealous if I were anything else." ~By Maya Angelou
"To be a champion you must believe you are the best. If you're not, pretend you are."
~By Muhammad Ali
"Unlock Tomorrow-Today" ~ Lolita Jackson
Loving you more than forever, and forever more I'll always love you...... ~ Lolita Jackson
Today I brought back out a book that I have read a couple of times called "The Power of Now." What I like about the book is that the author does a good job of having the reader get in touch with his/her inner woman or man in regards to excuses and the past. The author "Eckhart Tolle" suggests that our minds do a great job analytically creating a false ego that finds comfort in pain and suffering. I remember when I first read the book I was so uncomfortable because he dared to question religion as I knew it, imparting uncomplicated clarity of ancient spiritual masters with a simple yet profound message that radically changed my view with a heightened awareness spiritually that helped to connect me with the indestructible essence of my inner being, my soul woman.
I remember first reading about the pain body that is connected with my past and how the ego identifies unconsciously with pain and how pain can accumulate and is a negative energy field that will occupy our mind and body because it wants to survive like any other entity in existence that wants to rise up and take you over, pain wants to become us, pain needs it's food from me and it will feed and resonate on any experience that will give it energy in any form; anger, destructiveness, hatred, grief, emotional drama,violence and yes even illness.
I pulled my book out again today because I use that book as a tool, a source of reference, a reminder of what I'm dealing with when I find myself being bogged down with stuff trying to compile upon me, one thing after another, after another. I use the Power of Now to identify the pain so that I can expose it for what it is and not give my pain any further pain to feed upon. I find it to be a fascinating process because once the source is identified it makes the transition a lot smoother, my pain-body has had a lot of hurt on so many levels that I can't begin to count nor identify until situations arise and then I can say if a particular pain body is familiar or not because, like I said, some pain will remain dormant until it comes across a negative energy field that it can align itself with and then try to feed upon it and grow in your life.
It's moments like these that I embrace fully to allow for healing and transformation to occur. I call it my 15 minute rule, my knowing minutes. I give a situation 15 minutes, to vent it, process it, sit on it, think about it, then I move on to allow a soulution.
If ever there was a time to be a "Walking Woman That Wins" it's now......Walking allows me to take deep breaths, in and out while enjoying the crisp, fresh outdoor weather. I needed that today. I got out into the sunshine and started walking, it felt delicious.
I watched a new reality tv show today about Mary Mary and I heard a little of their song "Walking" I want to share the lyrics of that song with you.
"Walking"
"Tell me what you see when I pass by
A shadow, a cloud, or a line in the sky
Am I getting you wrong or am I getting you right
Well, all I can take is one,
One step at a time
Look at me, I'm trying
Everyday, I fall down
I make mistakes
Get back up
Try again
Next time that you see me
I'm walking, I'm walking, I'm walking
Some people say walking takes too long
But I say with walking you can't go wrong
Why should you rush your way through life
You won't get very far, running all the time
I'm walking, I'm walking, I'm walking
What does my life say about me
Can anyone see
Does it show I rock the greatest
I cant't get back the time I spent
Use the rest of it
To show all the world how I made it
I'm walking, I'm walking, I'm walking!!"
In every crisis, there is a message. Crises are nature's way of forcing change-breaking down old structures, shaking loose those negative habits so that something new and better can take their place. ~By Susan Taylor
"I can't believe my good fortune, and I am just so grateful, to be a black woman. A Black American woman. I would be so jealous if I were anything else." ~By Maya Angelou
"To be a champion you must believe you are the best. If you're not, pretend you are."
~By Muhammad Ali
"Unlock Tomorrow-Today" ~ Lolita Jackson
Loving you more than forever, and forever more I'll always love you...... ~ Lolita Jackson
Thursday, April 5, 2012
"Never Too Late!!"
April 4, 2012.......
Ready, Set, Go!! That's the way I feel today. I am ready, I am getting set to go. Last night I went for a walk at 2:00 a.m. I know that's probably not the best time to go for a walk but there is something about getting out into the fresh, crisp night air and taking a walk. Today was a beautiful day to get out of the house and go for a nice stroll in the neighborhood, looking at the neighbors yards and seeing how people are planting their flowers, getting rid of winter debris and doing some spring cleaning. I too got out in my garden and planted some beautiful flowers as well as some edible fruit plants, I'm excited to see how they turn out, I found a very unusual plant called a "pink lemonade blueberry" the pictures look amazing, I just want to seem them bud because they are so unique!!
I was talking to a friend last night and we were talking about making New Year's resolutions and how most of the time when people don't stick to them or they fall off they tend to stay off, so I was telling her that the same thing happened to me this year, I started out the New Year with these grandiose plans, big ideas and dreams, I was ready to conquer the world, well, life happened. I had some lose ends that I needed to tighten up, some things that needed closure as far as my health is concerned and I couldn't put it off any longer, believe me I tried. There was no way that I wanted to interrupt my program knowing that I was going to have to start all over again. I knew that such an interruption of six weeks could of side lined me for a whole year if I would resort back to old behavior, stinking thinking is what I call it, that place of comfort for me, that place that's very familiar. Well, there's something wonderful about this year compared to all the other year's that I have set resolutions, this year I've changed on the inside, I see the end in my mind and I want it. As scary as things tend to be I know that a new day brings about another opportunity to move forward no matter what. It's not too late!! It's Never Too Late!! I have practically the whole year ahead of me to make it happen!!
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
~By Marianne Williamson
"For things to change, you've got to change; otherwise nothing much will change." by Jim Rohn
The Challenge
Let others lead small lives,
but not you.
Let others argue over small things,
but not you.
Let others cry over small hurts,
but not you.
Let others leave their future
in someone else's hands,
but not you." ~ By Jim Rohn
LaLaLolita
Ready, Set, Go!! That's the way I feel today. I am ready, I am getting set to go. Last night I went for a walk at 2:00 a.m. I know that's probably not the best time to go for a walk but there is something about getting out into the fresh, crisp night air and taking a walk. Today was a beautiful day to get out of the house and go for a nice stroll in the neighborhood, looking at the neighbors yards and seeing how people are planting their flowers, getting rid of winter debris and doing some spring cleaning. I too got out in my garden and planted some beautiful flowers as well as some edible fruit plants, I'm excited to see how they turn out, I found a very unusual plant called a "pink lemonade blueberry" the pictures look amazing, I just want to seem them bud because they are so unique!!
I was talking to a friend last night and we were talking about making New Year's resolutions and how most of the time when people don't stick to them or they fall off they tend to stay off, so I was telling her that the same thing happened to me this year, I started out the New Year with these grandiose plans, big ideas and dreams, I was ready to conquer the world, well, life happened. I had some lose ends that I needed to tighten up, some things that needed closure as far as my health is concerned and I couldn't put it off any longer, believe me I tried. There was no way that I wanted to interrupt my program knowing that I was going to have to start all over again. I knew that such an interruption of six weeks could of side lined me for a whole year if I would resort back to old behavior, stinking thinking is what I call it, that place of comfort for me, that place that's very familiar. Well, there's something wonderful about this year compared to all the other year's that I have set resolutions, this year I've changed on the inside, I see the end in my mind and I want it. As scary as things tend to be I know that a new day brings about another opportunity to move forward no matter what. It's not too late!! It's Never Too Late!! I have practically the whole year ahead of me to make it happen!!
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
~By Marianne Williamson
"For things to change, you've got to change; otherwise nothing much will change." by Jim Rohn
The Challenge
Let others lead small lives,
but not you.
Let others argue over small things,
but not you.
Let others cry over small hurts,
but not you.
Let others leave their future
in someone else's hands,
but not you." ~ By Jim Rohn
LaLaLolita
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
"Integrity!!"
April 3, 2012.......
Has something ever just bugged the living day lights out of you so much so that you find your soul crying out? I am in that place, that space where I know that I am compromising my integrity, the integral part of my genuine, authentic self, and to that I say NO!! I can't rush God, he's not finished with me yet, I am still a work in progress and my problem is that I do want to rush him, I want to rush my situation and circumstances. There's a part of me that feels like I must help God out, as if God doesn't know what he's doing. I get nervous and begin to panic when I can't see the end from the beginning and I know that that's where faith must kick in, my faith has to be the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of the unseen. I have to stand and when I've done all I can do to stand, I must stand some more, regardless of what it looks like, regardless of what it feels like.......the pain, the anguish, I don't want to endure anymore is what I hear and tell myself, yet I know that there must be a lesson in all of this for me and if I don't take the test the way the teacher has written it and I go and try to make my little changes along the way then what I am essentially doing consequently is really just cheating........what I am ultimately saying to God is, "I don't like this test, I will design my own, or God just look the other way I'll help you out a little over here"
NOT!!
It doesn't matter how many tears I may have to cry, then I guess I will cry. It doesn't matter how lonely I will be, I guess I better find me a good book. It doesn't matter how much pain I have to endure, then I will endure it, because this I know, there isn't a tear in this world or a pain in this universe that compares to a compromised integrity, that is a soul pain, when your integrity is compromised that goes in on the deepest of levels, cuts to the core, and I have been cut from one side of my body to the next and never, ever have I felt nor endured any infliction of pain like that of a self-inflicted pain of the spirit man, the soul man that cries out NO-Lo, Don't Go!!
I know that I must be right on the cusp of something great, something bigger than I could think or imagine because the devil is so damn busy, attacking me on every level, especially in the area of my finances, this is where he'll trip you up, make you stumble, shut everything down, shut everything off and then say, now what are you going to do? Show you a way out, take you to the top of the city like he did Jesus and say "I will give it all to you, BUT?" The tempter, we must be careful with what the bible calls divers temptation, my grandmothers used to say "That ol' devil" They were right, that ol' devil, sits in the cut, and patiently waits. I am just sitting here as I am writing, I'm thinking about how clever, sly and cunning the enemy is, he's a hater and I feel stupid right about now, I let my guards down. I allowed the enemy, En-E-Me......
I don't want to be a statistic, a coulda, woulda, shoulda!! My tombstone reading that my talents, dreams, goals, ambitions are buried in that grave unfulfilled, (that ain't cute, nor is it sexxxy). That's Not Hott!!
So, it's soulution time!! What am I going to do about it? First things first. #1) Forgiveness..Dear Heavenly Father please forgive me for being lead astray, missing the mark, and quite frankly please forgive me for being afraid, and yes I said it, being afraid, having FEAR, fear of loneliness, change, & courage and equally as important, I today give Lolita permission to forgive Lolita!! #2) Action......The time has come for me to take action in all areas in MY life. If I need someone to show me how to manage my finances and show me how to make a budget and stick to it then I will find that person and do it!! I realize that I don't know how to manage money properly, I have champagne dreams on a beer budget. I will take a more aggressive action with my health, I am a "Walking Woman that Wins" but I also need to step it up in other areas. I will take action in my spirituality and work on my soul woman..... #3) Organization......OMG!! I am so un-organized that I can't see straight. It's ridiculous how un-organized I am, if I just start there everything else probably will work itself out...lol. #4) Time Management.... I must put myself on a clock and start using it. My time isn't managed from one minute to the next. I have got to manage every minute of every day for myself and I may need a personal assistant to help out. When I get my finances in order and figure out how much of an allowance I will be able to yield to myself I would be more than willing to hire a personal assistant as well as a house keeper to tie up some of the loose ends in my life.
1. Integrity; uncompromising adherence to moral and ethical principles; soundness of moral character, honesty 2. the state of being whole or entire;
2. Integral; of or being as an essential part of the whole; necessary to completeness;
Until I get my weight under control I will always feel like I have compromised my integrity. I won't feel whole, entire,or complete, my weight is obese and to that I say "Hell NO, Lo Don't Go!!" Being healthy, fit and lean has to be incorporated as an integral part of my very existence, that is essential and necessary for Lolita to be complete, un-compromised........
"We cannot choose how many years we will live, but we can choose how much life those years will have. We cannot control the beauty of our face, but we can control the expression on it. We cannot control life's difficult moments, but we can choose to make life less difficult. We cannot control the negative atmosphere of the world, but we can control the atmosphere of our minds. Too often, we try to choose to control things we cannot. Too seldom, we choose to control what we can......our attitude." By John Maxwell
" I have to live with myself, and so
I want to be fit for myself to know,
I want to be able, as days go by,
Always to look myself straight in the eye;
I don't want to stand, with the setting sun,
And hate myself for things I have done.
I don't want to keep on a closet shelf
A lot of secrets about myself
And fool myself, as I come and go,
Into thinking that nobody else will know
The kind of man I really am;
I don't want to dress up myself in sham.
I want to go out with my head erect,
I want to deserve all men's respect;
But here in the struggle for fame and pelf
I want to be able to like myself.
I don't want to look at myself and know
That I'm bluster and bluff and empty show.
I can never hide myself from me;
I see what others may never see;
I know what others may never see;
I know what others may never know,
I never can fool myself, and so,
Whatever happens, I want to be
Self-respecting and conscience free." By John Maxwell
"Though you cannot go back
and make a brand new start, my friend
Anyone can start from now
and make a brand new end!!!" By John Maxwell
"Loving you more than forever, and forever more I'll always love you....... By Lolita Jackson
Has something ever just bugged the living day lights out of you so much so that you find your soul crying out? I am in that place, that space where I know that I am compromising my integrity, the integral part of my genuine, authentic self, and to that I say NO!! I can't rush God, he's not finished with me yet, I am still a work in progress and my problem is that I do want to rush him, I want to rush my situation and circumstances. There's a part of me that feels like I must help God out, as if God doesn't know what he's doing. I get nervous and begin to panic when I can't see the end from the beginning and I know that that's where faith must kick in, my faith has to be the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of the unseen. I have to stand and when I've done all I can do to stand, I must stand some more, regardless of what it looks like, regardless of what it feels like.......the pain, the anguish, I don't want to endure anymore is what I hear and tell myself, yet I know that there must be a lesson in all of this for me and if I don't take the test the way the teacher has written it and I go and try to make my little changes along the way then what I am essentially doing consequently is really just cheating........what I am ultimately saying to God is, "I don't like this test, I will design my own, or God just look the other way I'll help you out a little over here"
NOT!!
It doesn't matter how many tears I may have to cry, then I guess I will cry. It doesn't matter how lonely I will be, I guess I better find me a good book. It doesn't matter how much pain I have to endure, then I will endure it, because this I know, there isn't a tear in this world or a pain in this universe that compares to a compromised integrity, that is a soul pain, when your integrity is compromised that goes in on the deepest of levels, cuts to the core, and I have been cut from one side of my body to the next and never, ever have I felt nor endured any infliction of pain like that of a self-inflicted pain of the spirit man, the soul man that cries out NO-Lo, Don't Go!!
I know that I must be right on the cusp of something great, something bigger than I could think or imagine because the devil is so damn busy, attacking me on every level, especially in the area of my finances, this is where he'll trip you up, make you stumble, shut everything down, shut everything off and then say, now what are you going to do? Show you a way out, take you to the top of the city like he did Jesus and say "I will give it all to you, BUT?" The tempter, we must be careful with what the bible calls divers temptation, my grandmothers used to say "That ol' devil" They were right, that ol' devil, sits in the cut, and patiently waits. I am just sitting here as I am writing, I'm thinking about how clever, sly and cunning the enemy is, he's a hater and I feel stupid right about now, I let my guards down. I allowed the enemy, En-E-Me......
I don't want to be a statistic, a coulda, woulda, shoulda!! My tombstone reading that my talents, dreams, goals, ambitions are buried in that grave unfulfilled, (that ain't cute, nor is it sexxxy). That's Not Hott!!
So, it's soulution time!! What am I going to do about it? First things first. #1) Forgiveness..Dear Heavenly Father please forgive me for being lead astray, missing the mark, and quite frankly please forgive me for being afraid, and yes I said it, being afraid, having FEAR, fear of loneliness, change, & courage and equally as important, I today give Lolita permission to forgive Lolita!! #2) Action......The time has come for me to take action in all areas in MY life. If I need someone to show me how to manage my finances and show me how to make a budget and stick to it then I will find that person and do it!! I realize that I don't know how to manage money properly, I have champagne dreams on a beer budget. I will take a more aggressive action with my health, I am a "Walking Woman that Wins" but I also need to step it up in other areas. I will take action in my spirituality and work on my soul woman..... #3) Organization......OMG!! I am so un-organized that I can't see straight. It's ridiculous how un-organized I am, if I just start there everything else probably will work itself out...lol. #4) Time Management.... I must put myself on a clock and start using it. My time isn't managed from one minute to the next. I have got to manage every minute of every day for myself and I may need a personal assistant to help out. When I get my finances in order and figure out how much of an allowance I will be able to yield to myself I would be more than willing to hire a personal assistant as well as a house keeper to tie up some of the loose ends in my life.
1. Integrity; uncompromising adherence to moral and ethical principles; soundness of moral character, honesty 2. the state of being whole or entire;
2. Integral; of or being as an essential part of the whole; necessary to completeness;
Until I get my weight under control I will always feel like I have compromised my integrity. I won't feel whole, entire,or complete, my weight is obese and to that I say "Hell NO, Lo Don't Go!!" Being healthy, fit and lean has to be incorporated as an integral part of my very existence, that is essential and necessary for Lolita to be complete, un-compromised........
"We cannot choose how many years we will live, but we can choose how much life those years will have. We cannot control the beauty of our face, but we can control the expression on it. We cannot control life's difficult moments, but we can choose to make life less difficult. We cannot control the negative atmosphere of the world, but we can control the atmosphere of our minds. Too often, we try to choose to control things we cannot. Too seldom, we choose to control what we can......our attitude." By John Maxwell
" I have to live with myself, and so
I want to be fit for myself to know,
I want to be able, as days go by,
Always to look myself straight in the eye;
I don't want to stand, with the setting sun,
And hate myself for things I have done.
I don't want to keep on a closet shelf
A lot of secrets about myself
And fool myself, as I come and go,
Into thinking that nobody else will know
The kind of man I really am;
I don't want to dress up myself in sham.
I want to go out with my head erect,
I want to deserve all men's respect;
But here in the struggle for fame and pelf
I want to be able to like myself.
I don't want to look at myself and know
That I'm bluster and bluff and empty show.
I can never hide myself from me;
I see what others may never see;
I know what others may never see;
I know what others may never know,
I never can fool myself, and so,
Whatever happens, I want to be
Self-respecting and conscience free." By John Maxwell
"Though you cannot go back
and make a brand new start, my friend
Anyone can start from now
and make a brand new end!!!" By John Maxwell
"Loving you more than forever, and forever more I'll always love you....... By Lolita Jackson
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
"What you say, is what you get!!"
April 2, 2012......
I believe that I am a child of the most high God and being a child of God, I believe that I am created in God's image and likeness, which has been having me doing a lot of soul searching and thinking lately. In the book of Genesis, the first book of the bible says that every time God "Said" whatever God spoke it came to be!! So, if I am created in his image and likeness, as God's child, I too must be capable of the same thing, that being said, I have decided to walk in the glory of my Father God.
I hear the Holy Spirit telling me that what's hindering me from accomplishing my goals is the very words that I have been speaking out of my mouth. God will honor his word, and his word says that "whosoever shall believe that those things which he saith shall come to pass....shall have whatsoever he saith"
I will put myself in a position to receive God's best for my life by speaking his word. God's creative power is still just as it was in the beginning of time, when he stood there and said, "Light---Be," and light was.
Lolita Jackson
I believe that I am a child of the most high God and being a child of God, I believe that I am created in God's image and likeness, which has been having me doing a lot of soul searching and thinking lately. In the book of Genesis, the first book of the bible says that every time God "Said" whatever God spoke it came to be!! So, if I am created in his image and likeness, as God's child, I too must be capable of the same thing, that being said, I have decided to walk in the glory of my Father God.
I hear the Holy Spirit telling me that what's hindering me from accomplishing my goals is the very words that I have been speaking out of my mouth. God will honor his word, and his word says that "whosoever shall believe that those things which he saith shall come to pass....shall have whatsoever he saith"
I will put myself in a position to receive God's best for my life by speaking his word. God's creative power is still just as it was in the beginning of time, when he stood there and said, "Light---Be," and light was.
Lolita Jackson
Sunday, April 1, 2012
"Courage"
"April 1, 2012........"
I must start my blog by first apologizing for not blogging for 1 month, the last time you heard from me was on March 1, 2012. On that day I was rendered incapacitated for reasons I'm unable to disclose, as well, I wasn't prepared for the length of time it would take for me to recover wholly, mind, body and soul. I took a hit, you've heard that saying, "take a licking and keep on ticking." My tick, was tocked. Still waters do run deep, for the last month I've been numb, walking around upside down and as the days would pass by it became easier and easier to settle in to my comfort zone, the place that would have me start something and not finish it, the place that would have me set a resolution and not complete it, bury my head in the sand and say "next year I promise I'll stick to the plan, next year I'll be ready, I couldn't possibly pick the ball up and go from here."
Or, could I? The answer is a resounding YES!! My YES takes courage. I am looking FEAR in the face with a made up mind to continue on the road to recovery wholly, no matter what it takes, no matter how many times I drop the ball, I'll find it and pick it up again. Who says that I can't? Oh, wait a minute, I know, it's been me, I've been telling myself a million times that I can't, that I can't change horses in the middle of the stream. That's the lie I've been listening to and some how I have bought in to that lie when the opposite is what matters, if you are on the horse and he breaks down in the middle of the stream you better get off and get yourself a new one, change horses in the middle of the stream if the horse you're on is the wrong horse!!
Making the decision to get back on my blog today didn't happen because I was waiting for one month to go by, it has happened due to a myriad of circumstances that has led me to face Lolita. There was no big bang, no lightening came and struck me, nope, just a still quiet voice that said now is the time, turn around, don't go that way, hold on, be patient, don't be a pig returning to vomit. Yes, Lolita it will take strength, yes Lolita you will need to be courageous, and yes, you will probably be lonely for now but you must adhere to the clarion call on your life, your purpose Lolita.
Today, I have the wonderful opportunity to re-write my story. I can write it to say whatever I want it to say and to that I say "Give me the Pen and Paper boo boo!!" This is wonderful to know that if God be for me than who can be against me? Am I scared? You bet your sweet little ass I am!! However; I'm excited.
Toward the light that shines so bright.........
You are here to enable the divine purpose of the universe to unfold. That is how important you are!
by Eckhart Tolle
The Audacity of Hope by President Barack Obama
I must start my blog by first apologizing for not blogging for 1 month, the last time you heard from me was on March 1, 2012. On that day I was rendered incapacitated for reasons I'm unable to disclose, as well, I wasn't prepared for the length of time it would take for me to recover wholly, mind, body and soul. I took a hit, you've heard that saying, "take a licking and keep on ticking." My tick, was tocked. Still waters do run deep, for the last month I've been numb, walking around upside down and as the days would pass by it became easier and easier to settle in to my comfort zone, the place that would have me start something and not finish it, the place that would have me set a resolution and not complete it, bury my head in the sand and say "next year I promise I'll stick to the plan, next year I'll be ready, I couldn't possibly pick the ball up and go from here."
Or, could I? The answer is a resounding YES!! My YES takes courage. I am looking FEAR in the face with a made up mind to continue on the road to recovery wholly, no matter what it takes, no matter how many times I drop the ball, I'll find it and pick it up again. Who says that I can't? Oh, wait a minute, I know, it's been me, I've been telling myself a million times that I can't, that I can't change horses in the middle of the stream. That's the lie I've been listening to and some how I have bought in to that lie when the opposite is what matters, if you are on the horse and he breaks down in the middle of the stream you better get off and get yourself a new one, change horses in the middle of the stream if the horse you're on is the wrong horse!!
Making the decision to get back on my blog today didn't happen because I was waiting for one month to go by, it has happened due to a myriad of circumstances that has led me to face Lolita. There was no big bang, no lightening came and struck me, nope, just a still quiet voice that said now is the time, turn around, don't go that way, hold on, be patient, don't be a pig returning to vomit. Yes, Lolita it will take strength, yes Lolita you will need to be courageous, and yes, you will probably be lonely for now but you must adhere to the clarion call on your life, your purpose Lolita.
Today, I have the wonderful opportunity to re-write my story. I can write it to say whatever I want it to say and to that I say "Give me the Pen and Paper boo boo!!" This is wonderful to know that if God be for me than who can be against me? Am I scared? You bet your sweet little ass I am!! However; I'm excited.
Toward the light that shines so bright.........
You are here to enable the divine purpose of the universe to unfold. That is how important you are!
by Eckhart Tolle
The Audacity of Hope by President Barack Obama
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